March302012

Happiness - Part 2

Hey Guys! It has definitely been a while since I have last posted! The previous post would have summed up the reason why I have yet to be writing lately! So do support me, like my videos, follow me, and also give me comments on ways I can improve, and also any requests that you guys may wanna hear from me! :) I would really appreciate any support shown to me! :)

Well anyway, I initially thought I have not written anything about happiness before when I started sourcing for information to write this article. Until just now, did I realise that I have actually given a preface to this episode – happiness. So let’s go!

What is defined as happiness in your life? The dictionary meaning according to Dictionary.com refers to happiness as the quality or state of being happy – (delighted, pleased, or glad, as over a particular thing); an indicative pleasure. What’s yours? How do you measure your magnitude of happiness? Do you use a flexi-curve and measure the gradient of your smile? Or connect the two ends of your grin to a happiness meter and read off the gauge? Let us simply put it; it is not possible.

Happiness has many shades, many degrees, many faces, many definitions, and many subtle references. But what is real happiness? I have no answer to that, but a recap to part one, where I mentioned that happiness is to be pursued. I once watched a movie titled ‘The Pursuit of Happyness’. No, I didn’t spell the title incorrectly, but this film is based on a true story, and from a signage near the male lead son’s daycare centre, gave rise to the name. It was played by Will Smith, and it was about this man, who makes a living selling something like a bone density scanner, by which he had heavily invested once, before the scanner got phrased out, which incurred a lot of losses. Now, he doesn’t have any money in the bank, no roof above his head, his wife left him, he managed to get custody of his child, but lives off the sales of this old and unwanted machinery. In the end, he managed to be employed as a stock broker, after all the struggles, he managed to win his son’s heart, and managed to, finally, break his poverty cycle, and embark on a new journey. The story ended there.

To the male lead, what was his definition of happiness? A loving wife, a home to go back to, a job providing steady income, or simply a son who would stay by his side regardless? I believe it was the latter, and even though he did, in the end, manage to get a job as a stock broker, his heart was still with his son.

From this I gathered, one man’s happiness may not necessarily be another’s; we all set our own degrees of happiness, our definitions of happiness. What we feel, see, and receive, may be what others long the most, but sometimes we take them all for granted, for we desire greater things. We have got to learn how to treasure even the littlest in our lives, the minutest of the minute details, the most, seemingly irrelevant things in life, sometimes do hold the highest importance, yet had passed our eyes so casually. Why? Guess it is really that our bar of satisfaction is raised sky high, that no one thing is possible to instill a longing happiness in our hearts.

Are you guilty? I am. Recalling what I have previously posted, that life, indeed, is like a Sine curve graph, whereby our mood, degree of happiness, fluctuates up and down; it is on our part, should we decide to superimpose a modular sign to reinstate or happiness once we hit zero. However, I have not been doing that. Another interesting perspective of life was from one of my friends who said how we should add diodes into our lives should we face problems. Like how in its conversion of alternative currents into direct currents, the lowest you can go to is zero, and subsequently, once again, you pick yourself up, to the climb to the voltage peak. Let’s just say I haven’t been adding diodes into my life. Which primarily was one of the reasons why I have discontinued writing for such a long period of time.

But let me ask you something, what makes you happy? Is it money, love, physical company, computer games, free time on your hands, holidays, hobbies, eating, videos, music, hanging out, good grades, or simply completing all your homework? Well let me tell you an exciting discovery that I have mustered out of my moodiness, self-containment, and sorrows, is that we truly can find happiness in the littlest of life. What do I mean? It simply means to pay attention to the details of the world around us, identifying, and grasping revelations from the basic things, the fabric of our existence, and praise the Lord above for such diversity of life that we now so comfortably lead. Just this morning, I roused and stepped out of my house, made my way downstairs, only to gaze at the magenta sky, perfectly painted in the break of dawn. Immediately a hymn of worship I wrote a long while back ringed through the spirit of my being:

Thank You Lord

Verse

Thank You for this day O Lord,

I thank You for today.

To see the sun above my head,

To rise up from my bed.

I thank You for the noise I hear,

You wipe off all my tears.

I thank You Lord, for all my peers,

That stick with me throughout the years.

Chorus

I thank You for the air I breathe,

The blessings that You gave.

The things Lord that would never cease,

I thank You for them all.

Verse

Thank You for the wind O Lord

Reminds me of your grace,

Thank You that I’m made to praise,

Lord I am so amazed.

I thank You for the love You gave,

My life that You have paved.

Thank You Lord for saving me,

With You Lord I’d rather be.

.

Chorus

I thank You Lord, for the cross,

You died for all my sins.

And so I live this life for You,

Jesus only You.

I almost tear-ed, when I was reminded of such great faith and thanks-giving I once possessed before the devil tried to instill negativity into my soul. I repented to the Lord, I shook off the devil from my heart, and filled it with the love of the Lord. The joy of the Lord overwhelmed me, my definition of true happiness.

For me, there are many things that can make me happy, besides the unceasing source of happiness that I have already mentioned above, other factors can match up the joy I feel. Let me name a few: dropping me a text, simply to ask me how am I doing, or just random thoughts that you wanna share. Come and say hi or bye when you see me. Hug me. Pat me gently on the back. Confide in me. Have a meal with me. Sit with me and talk to me.

Do one of these things, you’ll make my day! Honestly, it would. Frankly speaking, I am an easily satisfied person, yet I’m willing to go to great lengths to please you. An easy person to get along with, am I?

Well, I attended a workshop seminar recently, whereby the speaker told us how there are millions of sensory information all around us, in one sight, and we can only pick up 2000 odd bits of this information at any one time. What I am trying to say is that, when we are having our free time, when we are alone, why not we convert this time to useful time to open our minds up to the world out there which somehow passes our eyes over and over again? Why not we give attention to things we have never once noticed on the way home, or to school, or in school, or anywhere around us, instead of wasting?

After all, happiness is for us to pursue, and it is ultimately up to us, should we embrace the moment of finding joy in the littlest of life, and manifesting that a hundred-fold, within the depths of our being, well, that’s up to us! Have a great weekend! :)

March82012

Hey Guys!

Sorry that I have yet to post anything ‘inspirational’ lately, but I have been doing something, that is, song covers! I’m going solo first, and soon, my compilation will incorporate duets and stuffs with people :) do look forward to that! The responses to these videos will determine the new equipment I would install in my new home studio, so please do give your support :) if you guys have been faithfully reading my posts and revelations, you should remember that my next post would be ‘realisations’ but I guess I wanna change it to ‘Happiness’ :) mean time, do support JoelChansMusic on YouTube :D Thanks!~ http://www.youtube.com/user/JoelChansMusic?feature=mhee

February12012

Egypt 2011

Hey Guys!

It has really been a super long time since I have posted here, and just to make up, I would post this, a documentation of my Egypt trip which is actually only for selected people. Well, I guess now I would just say it was sneak preview for them xD well, do enjoy this, and look out for my next post titled - Realisation. Do enjoy this, and give me any comments or suggestions should you want to hear anything from me! Enjoy!

Day One:
Took a 1 a.m. flight from Singapore to Dubai, in transit to Cairo. Generally it was a pleasant flight except for the fact that I had a running nose when I was on the plane. Well, it is nothing out of the ordinary for me, as I would often have running nose due to a change in climate, even if it means to step into an air conditioned room, let alone the cold conditions and the difference in pressure and everything else up in the plane. Well, when the plane descended into Cairo, the sight was simply breathtaking, as i could see a layer of clouds illuminated by the breaking of the dawn. Funny seeing how out hyperbolic exaggerations used in our compositions come alive, even more beautifully before your very eyes. Then the desert plains become visible, and although it was very plain, like, just silhouettes of plateaus, and the miniature sand dunes in one plain sight, it was actually quite beautiful. For us, marveling at mountain ranges and plantation agriculture is the ‘normal’ definition of beauty. But this exotic and rare view of a desert at a bird eye’s view to the horizon can be too classified as beauty; the simplicity. It was juxtaposed by the suez canal and the red sea that flows adjacent to the edges of this endless sight. I really have no words to describe this beauty. It has brought too unto my memory that all that was created by God in 7 days, and what great plans did God had for the middle eastern countries to contain these brutal, yet simplistic creation. God did not bless any country or nation less, but gave each their own specific nature, and climatic conditions for us to treasure, and for the rest of the world to discover. Who knows? Maybe in twenty years time, beauty would not be defined as green pastures, and farmlands, and mountain ranges, but as what I saw from the plane? I guess that is what I love so much about leaving the cozy environment of home, and step out to the world, and experience, and comprehend the wonder and splendor, and the diversity of God’s creation. Indeed He is brilliant!  well, upon arrival to Cairo, having stepped foot on a foreign soil, I have too breathed in the foreign air. What they has said about Egypt is true; indeed the air lacks moisture. Although it is winter here right now, humidity levels remains, and it is really dry, and as of now, my fingers are already very dry; the thick layer of dead skin resulted from excessive usage of the guitar has dried up even more, and became more protruding. I can really feel the difference while typing on my left and right fingers xD okay that’s besides the point! At customs, we met the first of the Egyptian race, the people at the counter. I could really tell that they did not really bother much, and just did all the checks hastily. Well, they are generally friendly, and welcoming. So we got onto the coach, and it is those average air conditioned buses, 6/10 standard, rather dusty, having 3 houseflies circulating within the bus. Anyway, the first place we visited was a museum, which has many stone carvings and statues of the typical Egyptian figurines that you might have already perceived in your mind before you embark on a journey there yourself. But what helped me appreciate this form of art is the commentary and explanatory, based on the historical value and background that each individual carving has behind. Some may be from 3000BC and it has been preserved so well, that even the colors are original, reason being that the dyes are made from natural sources like flowers, eggs, etc. Also, the guide explained the ancient Egyptian symbols depicted in the statues, and all the different features found on each individual statue, ha a specific meaning and representation of the king the artist was trying to portray. It is indeed highly fascinating to know that people in the past can so skillfully do these things, and think of such great metaphorical representative of gods and goddesses. Well, it is just sad to know that it is these idols that the jews were worshipping under the nose of God. But anyway, it really fascinates me to see how much gold the people have back then to plate anything the Pharaoh owns in gold. For most of the things in the museum are made of wood, plated in gold. Well, after the museum trip, we had a lunch stop, whereby we had this buffet lunch. Well, you may be curious as to wonder how the food here tastes like. Well, it is pretty much the normal, something like that of Turkey, guess even if it was disgusting, we would have been used to it as we had worse in Turkey, either that, or we are really hungry. As for me, I took two full plates of serving, and I felt so warm. I guess the only reason I was feeling cold in this enjoyable climate was because of my lack of food! Well if I keep on this diet, I guess you will see me when I come back FAT  haha! On the way out of the city after lunch, I witnessed some really poor people dwelling in the streets, walking to the passing vehicles selling towels, and simple hand made items, in which many, were brushed off. I guess that’s just it when you are in a developing country, there are two ends of the social class, those wanting money due to materialistic drives, and the other, needing money to live on. Well the rest of the day was mostly spent on the coach, as we took the coach from the city, out. I took advantage of this long coach ride to catch up with some lost sleep, and I have to say that sleeping is awesome xD! By the time I got up from the sleep, it was 5 plus and the sun was already setting. I could see the sky in a screaming orange, extremely beautifully blended into the yellowish rock-face at the mountainous horizon. As the sun sets lower into the ends of the horizon, the mountains start to discolor and form silhouettes unto the dusk. The orange started to fade to a gentle yellow, before disappearing, revealing a beautiful navy-blue sky, before it totally dissipates into the darkness, leaving the night sky gloomy black. Not long after the disappearance of the light, do the stars start to appear. At first, I saw one bright star, and jokingly commented to my sister that it is the North Star, and should we follow it, we will find Jesus, in a manger, after all, it is Christmas! Well, but when everyone is fast asleep in the coach, and I flip open my iPad to update this, did I realize the night sky dotted by plentiful silvery white glimmers, that of you will never get to see in the bright city lights of Singapore. The breathtaking view Abraham beheld when God promised that his descendants will be as bountiful as the stars in the night sky. Indeed the night before Christmas is a really dark one, but without it, all these would not appear before my eyes. I took out my earpiece immediately, and turned on some Christian audio, and look onto the stars and worshipped Him. Knowing that I’m the only one awake, I whispered as I looked towards the brightest star I pointed out to my sister, and said, that is my promise Jesus; this is the covenant by which You have gave Your Word You will fulfill. The one that will lead to salvation, the path, the promise, the covenant that will lead me to Jesus Christ my Lord and savior. I spoke in tongues under my breath, marveling the transition, from this morning, the break of dawn, to the fall of dusk, a beautiful transition of the day, that will never be observed in Singapore. I submitted myself to the saturated presence of the Holy Spirit, hallelujah! While I was taking ten minutes to pray, and daze unto the stars, it has brought unto my memory of how a star can shine by its own, not having to depend on the sun or anything to have a natural radiance, like the sun, they are independent. So I got this revelation, when God promises us something, it is really like, ‘on this truth I stand’ kind, and it won’t waver one single bit. But when the devil tempts us, he has to be like the moon, he has to wait on the seasons of our life, whereby there would be a ‘full moon’ in your life, when you are at your lowest, in the darkest of the nights, when God, the sun, the brightest sun does not shine in your life, but the devil kopes all God’s light, and reflect negativity into your eyes, and you get to see him so brightly in your life, and get consumed it. Where other days, when God’s light shines, and it is not timely for the devil, it becomes a new moon, and God’s splendor is over your life, and on other days, he shines partially, like a crescent, a half moon, or a 3/4 moon. The devil has no roots in our life, he has to depend on the absence of God to try to consume us. So really, there is only one word to encapsulate the devil; weak. So this Christmas, why not we look to the leading star of our night sky, why not we pick up the brightest star in the night sky and recognize it as God’s promise to us, and follow it until we find salvation, until we find restoration, reconciliation, healing, our blessings that God has promised us! Let’s be shamelessly persistent in praying for it to come to pass, for after all, it is this time, 2000 years ago that God has so perfectly planned for Jesus to come to walk with the human race, to dwell with us, to edify us, to teach us, to heal us, to bring salvation to us! Amen?

Day Two:
We woke up at 630 in the town of Hurghada, in the Hilton hotel, we had breakfast at 7, and observing the risen sun at the edge of the horizon of the panaronic view of the Red Sea, paralleling the backdrop of an island of mountains (or at least that was what I saw). We took on an optional tour for a ride on a quad-bike; a four wheel drive in the desert. It cost 55 USD but I have to say it was worth it! It was a really simple mechanism, by which there is a thumb button for gas, and like the bicycle, brakes on the two handles. Well, it is really hard to explain the thrill that I felt while I was riding on the quad-bike, but it was rather fast, and hence breezy, and at times, dusty and sandy. At first it was difficult to maneuver, like how to control your speed, brake, and stuffs. But soon enough, we got the feel of it, and it was all alright. The trail was rather bumpy, and by butt was rather hurting. My thumb too was rather tired after having to press on the gas to move. The whole trail was about 30 kilometers, and it took two hours plus to complete. We had a rest stop midway, where we had a really short camel ride, like just 10 meters there and back. There, we saw the typical desert people, and they were rather poor. One even asked if she could have a pen from one of our group members, which before that, the guide had already told us about the people there who wanted our items, for they could not afford them. But still, she gave the desert girl the pen, and she was really happy. It is rather awkward to share, but at that time, I really felt like going to the toilet, so I asked the local guide if there was a toilet around. He looked towards the natives, spoke in Arabic words, then turned around laughing, saying “here, no toilet. Any mountain you like, go! Enjoy yourself!” and I was there like ‘…’ and smiled, and found a mountain that I really LOVE (yeah right) and went around it, making sure I was out of anyone’s sight, before relieving myself. I have to say, it was really cooling. I meant literally! XD then we went back. The experience was really awesome, as we got the chance to be close up to the landforms, like the mountains and stuff, like really travel to it. I’m really disappointed that there is no free Internet in the hotel, hence I wasn’t given the privilege to contact back to Singapore. Anyway, after that we were given half an hour to freshen up ourselves before taking the coach with the rest of the group to lunch. Lunch was really delicious, it is grilled chicken with buttered rice. Although it may appear simple, it is actually really nice. Idk if it is Egyptian style chicken rice or not, but it tastes nice. It is quite juicy, and the rice is really different from the one we had in Singapore. It is like, more oily, and sticky, like, not properly cooked, or not having enough water while the rice is being cooked. But when you eat it, it is palatable. If every meal here is like this, I’ll do just fine! (unlike in Turkey xP) well, it is Christmas here in Egypt, and I felt more homely feeling of Christmas back at the hotel the previous night as they served roasted turkey for dinner, and the man who cut the piece out for me was an Egyptian, but wished me Merry Christmas. I mean, what I love about these people who wait upon you overseas is their hospitality. I mean, in your own country, when people are being hospitable to you, you will just take it for granted, like, it is supposed to be that way. When when you are in a foreign land, and someone is being friendly to you, you will really feel that special warmth in you. After lunch, we were brought to the beachside to embark on a glass bottom boat in which we could look down the crystal clear waters. The waters in the red sea is indeed really clear, by which we can really see the seabed, and the corals residing there. What I love about the boat ride was the breeze, and it is really very fresh and moist air, as it was by the sea, unlike in the desert or city. One person even went for a dip! Wonder how freezing cold that would be! XD haha! Well anyway, after that, we went to a perfume palace by which a really convincing, tall and buff Egyptian salesman explained the history and origins of the essential oils, the pure concentrate formula by which all perfumes are made from. He could even memorize which base are that of the make up of various brands of perfume. Like Chanel, Dior, Hugo Boss, etc etc. he could name them all. Well, in any case, he had convinced me a lot that it is really worth buying. I was impressed, for I am not someone who is easily convinced xD there was frankincense as well! Haha! I didn’t know what it was until I smelt it today. Three drops of its concentrate was put into warm water, and they told us to smell it. Do you remember doing SPA and how your chemistry teacher tricked you into smelling ammonia? Well, it was the same, it went straight into your nose, down your throat a little, just that this time, you get menthol aroma instead of some chocking ammonia, whatever unpleasant smell xD apparently it was good for the running nose, so I took the cup of hot water for a second whizz xD my dad got himself a bottle of sandalwood, which actually has no fragrance but is good for the massage, or headaches, muscle pain etc. well, my main aim in wanting to talk more is to be as charismatic as him, as to be able to speak, and even if it is a trickery, make it sound convincing xD well, of course, I won’t misuse this ‘talent’ that I wanna cultivate out of the frequent talking that I practice. Well, the day ended with us heading down to a street where we are given an hour to shop a little, where we saw this Egyptian man, sitting down at a table, making colored sand bottles which was really beautiful. We got ourselves 3 bottles of the sand which we put our names in it, which cost us forty Egyptian pounds (s$8) which I thought was really cheap for such beautiful work of art. Then we went by coach back to the hotel for dinner, and now, retired back to our rooms. Merry Christmas! Regards from Egypt!

Day Three:
We woke up at 6 and had breakfast at 630, and checked it at 715 to start our journey towards Luxor. The benefit of waking up so early in the morning is the privilege to see the crack of dawn at the horizon of the Red Sea (as I had said I saw yesterday). The reason for this early rise was to travel to the city of Luxor. It was a 4 hour drive, which had really nothing much to see along the road, which was the reason the most of us fell asleep on the coach. One thing about here in Egypt is that the daylight is really short, and we have to use the most of the day to visit and see the places, before the sun sets at about 5 in the p.m. So our guide took this time to explain the history and background of this place Luxor, which is translated, the land of gods, by which most of the kings buried there (in the valley of the kings) have their pyramids. He even mentioned about Moses, and how in the Qur’an or in the Holy Bible it isn’t mentioned which Pharaoh was the one who Moses helped the Israelites out of Egypt, but he said many people debated that it was King Rameses II when in his rule, was a very powerful king. We had lunch upon arrival to the cruise (by which we would spend the rest of the four nights there), which they claimed to be five star, (which was not really good looking) we had our lunch. After lunch we headed down to see two temples, well, it was nothing the surprising about the place, perhaps because I have seen aplenty in Turkey, but what I really have to commend the ancient Egyptians is for their brilliant ability to transport these really heavy limestone and granite down the river Nile, to these places to construct. And also in that era, there was no such things as cranes, or machinery, but still they did it. And even now, coming to think of it, I think the modern day architect could not even replicate the similar facade, corridors, walls, pillars, obelisks, many many many works of art, and the best part is that every single surface of any wall, structure, ceiling, pillars, or anything is covered with hieroglyphic carvings, conveying really strong messages about the king, his reign, his palace, his contributions, his assumed afterlife, many many things. That, the history, was what impressed me, topped by all of that, was done in 2000 BC! By which men built it by hand! Simply amazing, it was meters tall, ten, twenty easily, vertically escalating skywards. Well, after the two visits to the temples, and having the guide explain to us the structure and the places in the temple (i.e. from facade to holy of holies), he brought us to the bazaar, in which we got a peek at Egyptian ‘salesmen’ which are, in one word, condensed, and spelt as, F.R.A.U.D.S.T.E.R.S; fraudsters! Well, at least most of them. At least I got me a good buy of ten papyrus bookmarks for one USD. Which I thought was quite okay. After the bazaar, it was already sundown, and we went on an optional tour on the horse carriage ride. I have to say, it was really very wort taking, for the ride took us into this really narrow road, by which was the sales of the fruits, vegetables, and clothing. It was so interesting, as I never knew it could squeeze into such tiny alley as such. Anyway, we got to explore the untouched areas of Luxor by which the normal tour did not cover. We got a first hand experience as to the life of the poor. We could really see how dirty they were, skinny, and went up to your carriages to ask for money. Honestly, when I first saw documentaries about these poor people in the region, I told myself one say I’ll be rich, and come down to these places and bless these people. But as I come down the alleyway by which these people were contained, I had mixed feelings about that. For yes, on one hand they may have their needs, but on the other hand, some disrespect the people, and even spat at my dad! Gosh! Well, but I thought the boy was just being cheeky xD I was really moved by compassion when the driver told to me come in front and sit with me, and we had a little talk, and it was my question to me, reciprocating the act of him asking if I was married, I asked if he was, and he said no, and the way he asked me if I was getting married soon, if I were to have a baby, were indirect implications of his own want to have it himself. Even though he did not say it out loud. This simple conversation, although he did not really understand English, and we had a really small talk, it was a good insight as to the life of the people here. Well, more than not, I observed the life of the people here, and really felt the communal life here; how the people could be standing my by the street and chatting, the driver just shouting at some familiar person along the street, shop vendors, etc. the kind of sight you do not behold in Singapore. The people here, I have realized so far, really love foreigners, many smiled and waved towards me when I was on the carriage, in the bazaar, from the coach, etc. Well, we concluded the day with dinner back at the boat. What a tiring day! It will be four days without Internet, meaning till now, and four days later, I had, and will have no communication with Singapore, which is really sad, for there ain’t no here on the boat  but whatever it is, I will enjoy!  good night! Regards from Egypt! 

Day Four:
It would be irritating to repeat the beauty of the sunrise here, but it just gets better. This time, we woke up at the sea level of the river nile, and we got to see the . Some who opted for the optional tour, to sit on the hot air balloon could enjoy the spectacular view from 2000 meters up, but we took the one in Turkey already, over the little town of Capadoccia, hence did not see the need, for we had the experience already. Well, today, we didn’t really do many things. Our first stop was to some twinning cat-faced statue called the colossi of memmon, it was really nothing much really, guess that was just some meeting place where we can unite with the rest of the group. But it was there that I personally got up close to an Egyptian dog! I just whistled randomly, and it just got up and went to me! My sister and I were so fascinated. Anyway, after that, we headed down to the valley of the kings, by which we weren’t allowed to take any photos. It was a beautiful limestone mountain, in which 50 kings were buried, and it was really interesting to see how the kings back then could think and construct such beautiful tombs. Most of the tombs are underground, and it is so fascinating to learn how they used simple leaver mechanism to bring down the massively heavy granite tombstone down from the top of the river Nile, down to the valley of the kings by which is down at Luxor. We were given a pass which admits us to 3 tombs, should we want to go for more, we have to buy our own tickets, but our guide said it wasn’t necessary. It is my first time being in such a large burial location for one person, so it was really cool. There were many many Egyptian painted engravings of what the king was like, as well as scenes, portraying the offering of food and incense to the Egyptian gods, as well as the kings potraying themselves as gods, with their cartouches, titles and descriptions. Well, it is another experience that I’m exposed to! Well, after exiting the valley of the kings, on the way to the temple, which is our next stop, our to guide clarified the Qur’an’s verson of the life and story of moses, which already alone, has many variances with that depicted in the Holy Bible. Well, one of our friends there shared the eastern interpretation, which if you are interested, I can share it with you! But really, who knows? Our heavenly Father in heaven! Anyway, we reached the majestic to temple of one empress which also housed many high ranking officials tombs. It was, to me, by far the nicest temple yet. Well, to tell you the truth, all the temples, tombs and historical statues all look the same, and over time, it just loses its flavor but still, merit given to the ancient slaves who were able to construct something so large and impressively elaborate in the minute details. Amazing! Well, the day was really short, like, really, for after lunch, was free time. So, we depended a lot on the pathetic ship facility. We made use of this cui table tennis table to kill our time, and well, it was rather alright! Well, I feel, it is more of a socializing time, as we got to know and get close to the other group members. I’m so sad, as I am the only guy, and also, there are only 4 teenagers there ><! Well anyway before dinner, there were small ships that came and tied their small boats onto our ship, and started seeking attention from the people at the top deck above, and threw shirts four stories up from their boats. I really adore their skills, and also, their trust in us that we would return them their shirts and carpets should we not want it. Well, I guess that’s their way of life, traveling around the Nile, to get business from the people on the boat. It is really interesting, and many people gave their ‘wooo’s’ and ‘waa’s’ when they threw the items up the boat. To me, I really feel sad, and sorry for these people, who’s way of life is so tough, making me feel so blessed, to know how fortunate we are. They are living on an average of 5USD a day. I really feel very sad for this variance of society, and made me want to treasure, and value everything that I do have. Anyways, we had dinner, and went to this shop in the ship, and saw this shop keeper named Bob. He was really nice, and he translated all our names in hieroglyphic, and explained what our names meant in the language. Today was really short, and the day was mostly spent on the boat, but I really have to say that the top deck was really cool, as the view is great, and also really cooling. Honestly, it was my first time taking a boat overnight, let alone, having 2 more nights here. It is really an enjoyable and relaxing time, these two days, and I guess it is due to this, that I am so lazy, that this documentation is getting shorter and shorter ><!~ but still, am unable to send it out, for there is no internet! Till then, peace out! 

Day Five:
Today we woke up early to get onto a horse carriage as a transportation to a temple that we are to visit. I think slowly, it is getting irritating, to disembark from your ride to find vendors and kids, pestering you, persistently pushing you to buy things, and say you have bought the item from one person, another person selling the same thing will come and try to sell it to you. But well, we cannot blame them, as they are really poor, and they need the money. But what I really admire about them is that even if you show not one ounce of interest, they will still come after you, and promote their products; I give merit for that. Well, it was just another temple, and in time, we got accustomed to identifying the depicted symbols, and scenes portrayed on the walls of the temples and tombs. I would have run out of vocabulary to describe these things to you. Well, there are two ways of looking at the number of temples and tombs built here in Egypt. One is to say that the kings then are really powerful to command his slaves to built these buildings for him, and it was not easy, but still he was able to make the people build it for him, and the other negative way of ‘appreciating’ the bountiful national monuments is to say that they are all the same, henceforth viewing one is enough. Well, to me, it is really an eye opener as to the historical value of these places; they are so rich in comparison to that of Singapore! Remember Bob? The shopkeeper? He was so shocked when we said that Singapore is only like 50 years old, as his country, Egypt has a long history of 5000 odd years. We were having this conversation of politics and religion in Egypt, and he shared how he was of a minority of 30 % of Christians, the Egyptian orthodox. He also shared how the Christians in Egypt are being discriminated against, and how some churches are bombed by the people. But really, what I see in Bob is true faith in the God he serve that He would protect him. Although we know that he isn’t a really strong Christian, we can tell that he has this aura, you know, if you know someone who is a Christian, and say or do something and you feel like the presence of God? He was like, I know, you all Christian, ‘cause I just see you, I know you Christian. Although it was just a simple statement with strained mutual understanding, we can really feel so.. Waaaa, like this warmth in you, like you are reunited with a long lost friend or brother! Then again, we went up to the sun deck to play table tennis again! It is a really simple yet fun game, you can’t really get bored with playing it. It was really during this time where you get to socialize with the group members. Well, our tour group has many aunties there, and they even commented about how I have darken in my skin tone, since day one! Haha! I mean, nothing beats understanding Singaporean aunties, for once you get into their language, like the half complain half praise, or joking with you and stuffs, well you can’t get that much time in Singapore with these aunties, for they will be arguing with the fish monger over 10 cents, or gossiping with their friends. So it is a real rare occasion to be able to linger around them, and having them ask you simple questions, and they will joke with you about little things. Funny how these little things can just brighten up your mood. After this free time, we went to another temple. Well, it will be just exhausting for me to explain to you the details, but this time, it is two temples, that mimicked each other, forming a symmetric figure, that looks like just one building, but the guide explained that the two were dedicated to two different gods altogether. Well then we went back to the ship, where we had tea time, and my dad had me to talk to this couple, who was on the same trip as us. I have been noticing him, and he is a rather rich guy, who at every stop, he would get souvenirs and photo mementos. But he isn’t those sort of snobbish rich guy who flaunts wealth, and has “eye see no men” - mu zhong wu ren. XD he is actually a really humble guy, he and his wife. He shared how he was the son of a man who provides raw materials (silk) to large companies like billabong etc.; he is an Indonesian, who came to singapore to study, and now, is a property agent. But he said he didn’t start off rich, he actually grew up in a one room flat, and slowly, built up his family business in indonesia, and how the large companies take advantage of their weak currency, the rupiah, and by this way, force their revenue to the minimum. But they still did well, and made a living. But in the economy crisis at the start of this millennium, his dad lost almost everything, leaving them to start from scratch from the one room flat. His boss lent hi, some money, and with his determination, he picked up fast. Fast forward, Josh, the guy who shared, got a business degree, and his dad asked him if he want to take over the family business, force was the eldest, but his dad didn’t want to, for he knows the business will only go down. So he went onto fox.com, and searched the 100 richest men on earth, and he realized that be it a banker, stock broker, doctor, or whatever, one thing they have in common is that they all were involved in the trade in the property market. That was the beginning of his story, and it wasn’t easy, for his dad doesn’t like the idea of him doing it, for if you don’t know how to do it right, once you lose it, you lose it by the thousands. But still, he made it up, and he was so successful, and really, like what pastor John avanzini said, he wasn’t bragging, for bragging is to say you have something you don’t have, but he has it. Today, he is nicknamed Astro boy in the property realm, and his just acquired a property in orchard where he will live with his wife and mother (his parents divorced) and it was 3 and a half story high, the tallest landed property in that area, the heart of orchard road, whereby he would have a four story high water feature, 6 carpark lots, and top grade interior design, including a fully glassed staircase well and lift, and had spent a hundreds of thousands importing the most famous kitchen down from UK. He did all that for his mother, for he wanted the best for his mother, for he remembered the lengths she went to give him the best, last time, in the poor conditions. You should know, it is harder to give the best when you are poor in comparison to giving the best when you are rich. So to him, it is jut a fraction of the sacrifice that she made for him, and he was possessing such great humility. I felt so blessed when I heard his story. It took about 2 of 3 hours for him to share but I thought I would just condense it for you. Anyway, after dinner we had this galabaia night, whereby we would down this costume and party. I bought the set for 8USD and I thought it was quite worth it. Although it was a short day, I enjoyed it a lot!

Day Six:
This morning, 27 of our group members embarked on an optional tour to Abu Simbel, which is the highlight of Egypt, or so they say. Our family reasoned amongst ourselves that it was not worth the trip, for firstly, we were required to pay each a hundred and fifty five USD, which was like… Whutt? And also, we had to wake up at 3 in the morning to join the convoy. It is a three hours up, and three hours down trip, with only a two hours stay there. We thought it was really not worth it, and we did not join it, and took time to catch up with some sleep. So instead, we got up at 7 for breakfast and took a walk down the streets ourselves. We were approached by a horse carrage driver who offered us 50 Egyptian pounds for transportation down to the bazaar in Aswan. Of course, it was after some bargaining and negotiating. It was our luck that we chose to take on this trip on the horse carrage, for not, we wouldn’t have known where to turn, and just walked straight to nowhere. Upon arrival to the bazaar, we had a look around, and my mom got herself three scarfs to give to her relatives. It was really interesting, the construction of the bazaar, for it was built along one single street which supposedly stretched for 4 bazaars. Well anyway, my dad got his friend this really cool sand bottle, by which you can design your name in it. This guy was doing it on the streets, this really nice boy, who displayed his artwork on the counter of his workplace. It was really beautiful, especially for one special one thy he did, on a wine bottle. It was so beautiful, the details of the desert floor, the camel, the sky, the birds, sun, sand dunes, etc. beautiful. So then we headed back to the entrance, and right at the arch of the entrance to the stretch of the bazaar, was Thomas and Rambo, the driver and the horse. We were taken aback by the fact that he was right smacked in the centre waiting for our return. For he said, payment would be when we disembark from the ride, not when we start. He sent us back to the boat, and when we paid him and disembarked from the carrage, he secretly swapped the notes and instead of 50, he displayed 35, indicating that we have short paid him. When we realized we were tricked, he admitted indirectly by saying “baksheet” for the horse, which means in their language as tips, which he supposed was for the horse. But we walked away. 50 Egyptian pounds is a lot to them already, which is like, 9 USD. This is for more than their daily wages, so although a bit more may be seemingly nothing to us, my dad insisted that we do not entertain them. We went back to the boat for lunch, before meeting the rest of the group for a yatch ride, which was to bring us to an elephant shaped island, but due to low tide, and the lack of wind, we weren’t able to go there. Really, this trip has been a whole new experience for me; it was the first time I rode a four wheel drive on my own, climbed onto a camel, sat on a cruise, and now, on a yatch. Life is good here in Egypt so far, and we saw migrating birds from Europe, to here in Aswan, which is warmer, over a sunset sky. Beautiful! Anyway, from there, we went back on board to the ship for free time. I guess out of 5 free times that we had, 4 were spent talking to bob. We even explained to him about the Chinese language, and gave him an interpretation of his name. His real name is Bahaa, and we made it in Chinese ba hai, 8 seas literally, and we explained how 8 is a really lucky number in Chinese, and how hai, is sea, and could represent his future is as broad as the sea. Similar to how he interpreted our name in hieroglyphic, we coined one for him in Chinese. He was so grateful. At night, we had a belly dance night. Everyday, our tour leader, Billy would draw and design the itenary on board the ship for that day. Our tour guide, the local guide, has a rather bad pronunciation of the English language, and sometimes refer to Billy as belly. So this morning, when the guys were out at Abu Simbel, my dad cheekily took a marker pen and corrected the belly dance to billy dance, giving us all a good laugh when the rest got back. If we were to compare the dance here in Egypt to that in Turkey, we all agreed that the one in Turkey was so much better. They had the wheeling durvishes as well, but still, Turkey was so much better. But still, we had a short, yet great day altogether! By now, it’d be 6 in the morning in Singapore for you! Good morning, and have a great day! Greetings from Egypt! (still no Internet in Egypt! Sad TTM  ).

Day Seven:
In the morning after breakfast, we checked out from the boat to the Aswan high dam, by which we got to see the Mediterranean sea, split by the the dam. It was a massive structure, which used 11 times more volume of rock in comparison to that of the pyramids of Giza! That alone could generate 50% of the energy in Egypt itself. After that, we took a motor boat to this temple, which house this structure that looks like a baby cot, and they called it the bed of the gods. Or so if I can remember. Well, I guess I will really skip the details, for I can’t repeat the vocabulary used to describe the rest. There, we met some students who went to visit the temple, and they were so friendly, and talked to me when I was taking a rest. Or thing I notice about the people here, is that they love to talk to foreigners. Be it having an agenda (want money, or to sell us things) or not, they just want to strike a conversation with you, and take a photo with you. I guess right now, I have doubts about the people whenever they approach me, like I will think if they have a ulterior motive wanting to speak to me. But still, as a whole, I still enjoyed the little conversations that I have with this people, and they gave me many new insights as to the life of the locals, and how they go about their daily routines, and how they make a living. After that, we went to this cotton factory, by which they sold 100% Egyptian cotton products, like shirts, sweaters, bed sheets, and table cloth. It was really cool, but to me, it isn’t anything impressive, just that it is Egyptian xD well anyway, we went to this really cool restaurant that is situated on an island, and we have to go there by means of motor boat. From there, we got to see another island that is originally shaped like an elephant. Food was as per normal, as we slowly got accustomed to the food down there. What was special was that we got this pineapple soda, and a special Nubian mixed fruit cocktail, which tastes rather well. So then we coached down to this granite quarry, which an unfinished obelisk was found, the reason for their abandonment of this obelisk was that it was cracked. For not, it would become a forty odd metros tall one. But our guide said that no matter how tall or impressive a statue, tomb, temple or monument may be, it is the unfinished, or abandoned ones that are valuable to archeologists for it is through that that they get to uncover how the ancient Egyptians do up their buildings. It was a great climb up, and at the top, we got to see this really long piece of granite, that has yet to be engraved, which has cracks over it, and we realized why it wasn’t used. After that, we went to this papyrus producing factory, where we got to view how the people make real papyrus paper, instead of fake sugar plants produced paper. Anyway, the great thing about it is that the paintings were so beautiful, and I got one for myself, to display in my room when I will be moving. Of course, I didn’t get the expensive one, but one that was reasonably good, and I requested to paint my name on a cartouche in hieroglyphic. It was great! Anyway, we went back to the ship at about 3 to have a bath, for you can’t to do so in the train, for there is no shower facility. So we bid our final farewell to Bob, who gave us an insight to the protest and revolution in Egypt, and he told us he was a protester himself. Haha! Well then, the driver dropped us off at KFC to take away some food, as the guide said that the food on board the train is bad, so he advised us to buy some food from KFC. For tonight, we are going to sit on an overnight train to head back, from Aswan railway station, back to Giza, at Cairo. You can add this to the list of the things that I will do for the first time right here in Egypt. For I have never sat on an overnight train before, and it would be my first. My dad warned me that it would be very bumpy and I could not sleep. Anyway, when we arrived in the train, gosh was the cabin squeezy! it could barely contain our luggages, let alone having to open them, so we just let it be. Well, the dinner served looks just like normal, just that it doesn’t taste normal at all. I had to chew the chicken with the muscles of my jaw excruciatingly, for thirty times before it could be sizable to swallow. We settled down, and it is bedtime. 

Day Eight:
My dad was wrong, and I slept like a log in the train, for 9 hours, guess I was consumed by the tiredness of the whole trip, and I finally gave up trying to keep awake for the last few days, hence I just laid on the cabin bed, and listened to music. At first, I was so consumed by the sadness, and depression the songs were trying to convey. But soon, I wanted to get out of there, and I just turned on Christian audio, and overwhelm the sadness with God’s presence. I cried quite a lot, cuz I was feeling rather sad and depressed. Still, I made it out of the day. It was much colder, when we arrived, at Giza railway station, in comparison to that of Aswan; in the morning when we breathed out, smoke could be seen. So we hopped onto our coach, and made it out to our sight seeing programme. We had a rather tight schedule, as we visited four sites in Cairo. I couldn’t really remembered the sequence of events; the chronological order of progression. Well, from what I can remember, we had visited tombs, temples, as well as a fort. Well, I shall skip the first two, for they would be the same to talk about, but as for the fort, it is a first. Well, I have never seen an actual fort before, and I guess fort canning doesn’t count. This fort was built for a sultan, a king, who had actually constructed a lighthouse, which was one of the ancient seven wonders of the world. But because of an earthquake, the whole lighthouse collapsed, and using the stones from the originally built lighthouse, the people constructed a fort, which stood at the original ground of the site. The fort is really very large, and it was like three stories tall, the main one, and there were many interesting features of the fort. For example, there was this opening by which the soldiers could pour boiling oil down the vent, which is situated right above the opening of the fort, and I could really imagine how the people can defend themselves. Like when the enemy came, and they retreated back into he fort, they can pour the boiling oil down and ignite the whole thing altogether. Okay, too much of imagination. Well, another interesting feature is that it is built similar to Singapore’s, as they also overlooked the sea. For this case, it overlooked the Mediterranean sea, and it was just, b.e.a.u.tiful! Choppy waves crashed into gabions, which protected the foot of the fort, and I just got a revealation; our faith is only temporary. Just like the gabions which protected the foot of the fort (as learnt in geog that it is hard engineering against coastal erotion) has a “lifespan” of 15 years, so does our faith; having a limitation, a lifespan. The devil comes like a destructive wave, bringing more backwash than swash, and he tries to erode our promises from God. So we as Christians have faith, and put up our defense machinisms to insure ouselves against the devil. It is just like how men put up coastal protection measures to prevent the loss of their national heritage. But still, it is only temporary. There is always a time limit, lifespan, best before, and expiration date for anything. Be it a car, a dog, food, water, and so does our faith. Day by day, the devil will keep trying to attack our faith. Minute by minute, out faith level will depreciate, our resistance will be diminished, our strength will dwindle. But God, offers us comfort, salvation, promises, deliverance, blessings, anointing and love, He is our Shepard, of which, will lead us towards the truth, and the Father. Jesus provides us with the renewal of our faith, the reinforcement of our resistance, and the fortification of our strength. Amen! Fret not when the devil attacks our faith, for we know we have a higher calling, and a greater purpose than to be repeatedly attacked, consecutively assaulted, or time and again get encroached by the devil. But we are here to be one with Christ, and to let Him come into our lives, intervene within us; and let His glory blossom, His mercy magnified, His love love augmented, His grace transcended, His love radiated for all to see I our lives! Amen? Well after the visit, we had a late lunch and it was there, which I had first contact with Singapore! I heard over the phone, within the chatter of the background of the new year eve celebration, the soothing voice, of you know who  it was just the reverberations through my soul, the warmth of the distant receipted love, that my love satellite dish managed to pick up signal from. The answer to my prayer, that I so badly needed for eight days, without wifi. The answer that God gave me, after having to cry out to Him at night, in the train. Indeed He may not be early (it is eight days!) but He is never late! We were at this restaurant I overlooking the sea, as the sun was descending to the edge of the sea, when it was almost midnight in Singapore, I hope I had completed her year, as how she did to mine  hehe! Well, then we went on a super long ride to the hotel, which by God’s grace, have wifi as well! All glory to God xD really! It was truly a new year’s gift from God so then I was able to view some really awesome video messages, and I was able to reply to them. Well then, we had dinner, and had a bath, before heading back down to the reception for a second helping of wifi, and the countdown to 2012! It was just so great to be able to stay up for the first time, over 12 in Egypt, and it was to count down to the new year. When then counted down to one, the first thing I saw was an old couple French kissing passionately right in front of me. What an amazing sight behold on the first day of the new year! Gosh >< anyway, we greeted those who stayed up happy new year before heading to bed. Anyway, I just like to challenge you to start this year with an abundance of faith, having a five kilometer long gabion, to shelter and charge up for the tough year to come! Happy new year! Greetings from Cairo, Egypt 

Day Nine:
Happy New Year! We woke up early in the morning to take a bus ride down to the desert area. It was a 400 kilometer drive all the way to the ‘resort’ where we’re to be staying for the night. It is indeed a long time, sized to ten times to that of the length of Singapore! So using this time we had, we played monopoly on my iPad. We played with Josh top, the property agent, so yeah, it was fun to see him bring in some sales talk xD Well, it was really time killing, and before the second game ended, we reached the desert area. We visited many little place, like a mummy museum, burrial chanber, as well as a tomb which is burried under the desert sand, which was excavated. It was dedicated to many pharaonic gods. Soon enough, we reached the hotel, and checked into this little room, which housed three beds, and two beds in another room. We decided that for this night, we’d all sleep in one room altogether. So after lunch, we chose a jeep, whereby we would take for the whole day until we get back. So we had this really nice tour around the deserts, and we had a stop over at one of the plains for photos. In my opinion, the tour to Egypt started today, for my impression of Egypt is about deserts, sand, pyramids, camels. It was really amazing, my first time stepping onto desert sand, and touching it with my hands, and sinking my feet deep into the sand. Amazing. It was just, so fine, and beautiful. The mountains that is carved so beautifully naturally by the winds, was a splendid sight to behold, and this time I’m serious  *wink* haha! Well anyway, we went to the black and white desert. It was not long before it was sun down, on the first day of 2012 in Sahara desert, but what unfolded was even more magical than what was in the day. Remember the sight that I described to you on day one? It was similar. One look up, you see the vast infinity of the pitch black welkin, dotted by countless stars, a sight that I myself have never beheld, a sight I myself never dreamt of being in. It feels like open heavens, when you get to see all His majesty, the whole sky, painted with His radiance. I just can’t explain how beautiful it is, for words are just words and you just have to be there by yourself. I just stood there, marveling God’s creation, and even this is a fraction of what God has created for us. Splendid! It will always be, indefinitely, a unforgettable, memorial day for myself, and I believe many others, to be under the stars, having dinner, by a fire, in the middle of the Sahara desert, on the first day of 2012. I really cannot encapsulate the beauty of the night into words, but all I have to say, it was the second best night in Egypt, for there was lacking of God’s presence, unlike that of day one. But on the trip back, I turned on Christian audio, and jacked two earpieces on, and just submit myself to whatever that is to take me away. God came. I turned on the playlist of Hillsong’s A Beautiful Exchange, and I was soaked in tears, when the praise, open my eyes came on. “in the stars I see your majesty displayed, in the heavens all Your wonders far proclaimed… I seek to know the ways of your heart”, soon, I fell asleep, and crawled back into the resort, and was fast asleep. (guess now you know I am backtracked in my documentation ><! 

Day Ten:
Theoretically the second last day here in Egypt, but I’d consider it the last, for the next day, all we would do is to travel to the airport, and go back home. This morning, we woke up early, to the chilly frosty morning in the resort of Sahara. Well, we had out breakfast, and took a similarly long trip back to Cairo, as long as how we made it there. This time, we didn’t play games, but rather, catch up on sleep, while I, caught up with my bad lot (of this documentation), and also to read the English translation of the Chinese ISPL book - The 
All of the Wild. Well, it was not long, before we have reached the pyramids area, and we had lunch, before jumping straight into a two odd hour exploration of the pyramid area. From the coach, (afar) the great pyramids of Giza, one of the seven wonders of the world, do not look as impressive, like, it wasn’t as tall. But once we got up close face to face with the hundred and thirty something meters high pyramid, we were awe-struck by the majestic structure. About the pyramids, and why ancient egyptians wanted to build it was because its triangular shaped is likened to the symbolism of the sun god, Ra, and the Egyptians kings wanted to be like the gods, that in their after life, when buried in pyramids, would be like the sun god, shining all over egypt, all over the world. Every construction of the pyramid consists of four buildings : the valley temple, whereby the mummification process would me held, mortuary temple, where the funeral rites would be carried out, the causeway, where the mummified body from the valley temple would be transported to the mortuary temple to carry out the rites, and lastly, the pyramid itself, where the dead king was to be buried. Well, it is really really fascinating to know how all these things existed in the past. Amazing! Well, we stood at the foot of the largest pyramid, and look skywards, it was so steep; each block of the rock is six small steps! Although I thought it was bodily able to scale the whole height of the pyramid (I would if I was allowed to), but was stopped at the height of where everyone is, that was, only a fraction of the whole height of the pyramids. Now that’s what I’m talking about, Egypt  haha! Well anyways, we went to the panorama of the pyramids, whereby we got to see the three pyramids of Giza from a panoramic view. It was amazing. And it was there where we took a formal, 15-20 min camel ride. It was super cool, butt very scary, and gross. The camels were burping, and shitting, and everything, and it was smelly, and an unpleasant sight. But still, the scenery have proved to be a better sight than to look at the camels. Haha! Well, towards the end of the ride, it was almost sun down, and there was a column of light that shone down to the surface of the earth, like heavenly light, you must see the photo! My sis captured it, but it was definitely more appealing real life, but it will do. Really, it was amazing, like God’s light shining! Haha  well, the dark clouds approached, and it started to drizzle!! We were so lucky, for it only rains in Egypt for five days (if I didn’t remember wrongly) in the year! The guide said that it is good luck, to see rain there, and I guess he was right, like what are the chances. Haha! Well, the rain didn’t last long, not long at all, and it was the lightest drizzle that I have ever seen before. The droplets were so fine, and the touch on your skin is almost negligible! Well then we visited the Sphinx, the cat faced statue, and had a group photo there. We ended up,the day in the Cairo bazaar, having the last leg to chiong buy all the souvenirs for our friends. Well, that was the whole trip of Egypt. All in all, I feel that it is a really great trip, and like I said, had many first experiences, and revelations from God. It is either the best trip, which I feel it can be engraved in my memory, or I have grown to appreciate, the value of overseas trips, and the lessons that I can bring home! Unforgettable. 

Hope you have enjoyed :) God bless you :)

December162011

Power & Influence

Hey guys! It has been yet another three weeks since I have last posted, but I’m really glad to be inspired once again, and here I am to share it! Well, things have been rather smooth-sailing for me, and my emotions have generally been embarked on an upward inclination towards positivity. Life is good, and it will stay that way. I was in a service when Rev. Dr. Steve Munsey came and taught us to speak to our future; speaking into existence what isn’t as thought it is. He gave a very simple example, say you woke up in the morning telling yourself that you’re going to have a bad day, chances are you WILL have a bad day. Transversely, if you wake up in the morning telling yourself “This is the day that the Lord has made, I WILL rejoice, and be glad in it”, you have a high probability of being happy. Agreed? From that service, I have really learnt, and started practicing the acts of optimism, and as I speak into existence my future, the things to come, as though there already were, I began to see miracles after miracles unfolding in my life, having clarified visuals and revelations as to the eminence of God’s blessings and grace over my life!

Anyway, while I was bathing, (ironically many of my inspirations come to me when I’m in the toilet – it supposed to be the *uhem* release *uhem* of it, well, if you get me xD) I thought about this topic, of Power and Influence. Coming to think of it, power and influence, in fact, most of the world is ruled by the rich and famous. Indeed you may say that you are free, you have a freedom of speech, freedom of choice, freedom as to what you can do, personally my father said I’m officially free after the age of 21, but you are still governed by the rules of the one who holds power. Power and influence is sought by many people around the world, some are desperate for it, having personal reasons for that, others are motivated by the monetary benefits it has to offer; once you have power and influence, naturally, finances start falling into your hands.

A classic example of one who has power and influence, that almost everyone has seen, or have partook in your lives is when you are in primary school. Have you guys ever heard someone say ‘I don’t friend you if you like that, and I tell everyone to not friend you’? This is indeed the classic example of one enforcing their power and influence upon others for their will to be done; it is even present when we are so young, unknowingly to us. If we were to take a step back and see, in our classes, cliques, and groups of friends, statuses in society, in our families, and workplaces, there is bound to be someone, who has the key, the authoritative word to say something, and the rest would follow suit, the one who has power and influence.

Just like Singapore is ruled by a democratic government, offering the benefit of meritocracy, stating how we ourselves can make up who we are, giving people the chance, should they take it up, to be successful. Unlike in the ancient times, whereby only those who are heirs to rich and famous families are allowed to stand up in society. We live in a generally fair society, by which we ourselves are responsible in dictating our future; we ourselves are responsible in making decisions, carving out our own path in life, to become who we want to be down the road in life. I am thankful that I’m born in the 21st century, by which I do not have to be born into this world from a wealthy family to be what I want to be.

But like I said, as much as we have the freedom of choice etc. we are still governed by the decisions made by the one who holds power and influence, we still have to abide to the laws implemented by the governmental sectors, enforced by our law enforcement agencies. Meaning to say, much of the world has already been made out for us, and we are nothing more than puppets being manipulated by the high ranking officials, the rich and famous, that is, if we let them do so.

My dad is really practical, pragmatic and straight-forward. He opened up this concept into my head and let me decide on my own; to rule, or to be ruled. So today I give to you this similar concept, as to the knowledge of the existence of such people at the ends of the food chain of society, doing little, but eating much. They are also known as your bosses, your employers, supervisors and what other names you have for them. Should you be it, or be under its system is up to you to decide, as expressed in the previous post.

I don’t know if you have watched the show ‘In Time’, but it shows of a time in year 2161 in which the world’s population of humans have been subjected to genetic alterations, allowing the entire race of humans to stop aging at 25, and from then on, they have to work to ‘buy time’ in order to continue living. Their time they have on their watches (on the left lower arm if I remembered correctly) is how long left they have to live, and when it reaches 0, you die. In the show, it depicts of a society in which uses time as their currency. Say you work for a day, and will be paid 20 hours, or work for a service, and be paid for a certain number of hours, buy a coffee for an hour, or a lunch, for two. It shows how a man from living in the ghettos, having an average of a day to live every morning when they wake up (mirroring the reality of people in the ghettos living hand to mouth) juxtaposed by the distinguished ‘time-zones’ (classes of societies) whereby the rich and famous can plunder centuries onto casino tables, living in luxurious houses, having numerous bodyguards, and having electric cars displayed outside their houses.

In the show, the male lead, played by Justin Timberlake (Will) was from the ghettos, and he saved a man who is worth a century from gangsters. He claimed to be tired of living, and in the middle of the night, transected all his time into Will’s watch, and in the morning, timed-out (died) by the bridge. He lost his mother, who timed out in front of him, and to seek revenge for the inequity of the time system, by which the rich and famous can only die by an ‘accident’, hence travelled to New Greenwich, the time-zone for the rich and famous, and gained a thousand on his watch while winning on the casino table. Then, he fell in love with the daughter of a wealthy man, who is worth a million years (similar to millionaires and billionaires in today’s context) in the business of lending time (money). Together they robbed her father’s shops and distributed the time to the poor, in hopes of him getting revenge.

What I took away from this show was indeed the rich and famous have an upper-hand in living their lives. Being born in an upper class family will determine a certainty to your longevity, as they have the time (money). Like in our world, being born in a well-to-do family will determine the comfort level in your life. I’m ever so thankful that God has not created our world like that, that we are able to be subjected to our own efforts to success, and lesser the heirloom. I learnt to want to make my own achievements out of the talents and gifts that God has blessed me with, into success for His glory. I want to use all that I have, to do it for His sake, for without Him, I wouldn’t be where I am.

Recently, I talked to my friend about my overseas trip. She envied my parent’s ability to bring me overseas annually, and tasked me get something for her sibling there. She told me that it has inspired her to want to work hard, to be successful, and to provide to her children what her parents could not provide for her. She was motivated, while seeing people around her having the ability to do certain things, unlike others who will break down in self-pity and feeling sorry about themselves, made it a point, made it her motivation to want to strive for a better life, by which she could do these things, and her children will benefit from it. That is the kind of people that I like and have respect for. This is the kind of people who will not let themselves be subjected to their circumstances, but use that as a strength, a fuel, empowering them to succeed. So I told her, she will be an awesome mom.

Dear friends, I challenge you, to use the things that you lack, the things that you feel that you are not blessed with as your motivation, as your fuel. Instead of being sorry for yourself, crying tears of self-pity, I challenge you to convert this energy into positivity, using this as your strength, empowering, propelling yourself forward through classes of society, till you finally reach the top. Who’s to say what you cannot do when you have God by your side? Who’s to dictate your future, prophecy lowly to your longevity, speak negatively of you when you have the Lord your God by your side, guiding your path? Dear friends, I pose this challenge to you, as long as you have something lacking in your life, seeing people all having it, leaving you all alone, just like how my friend reacted, to not let herself be subjected with her background, her circumstance, but use that as her cornerstone, her pillar of support, in lunging yourself forward in life.

Are you in? God bless you, have a great December! :)

November252011

Past Present Future

Hey guys! I’m really sorry I have not been posting on my blog for a REALLY long time, because I’m rather busy. For those who know why I have been busy, you must be smiling from ear to ear right now! Especially the person who’s taking up my time! Well, anyway, school’s out, holidays are in, and time sure knows how to whizz its way pass me! It is the end of the second week of the holidays, and I have a confession, that I have not been touching much of my ISPL – Individual Self-Paced Learning, aka holiday homework.

I have been into deep thinking lately, and now that I have a medium to express my thoughts and feelings, I guess I would frequent this option less often. Anyway, this post was done on request from my literature classmate, who asked me to update my blog! These are the time when I really feel appreciated for writing here! Thanks a lot! Well, I guess she asked me to write about ‘Past & Present’ but I decided to add in future!

My pastor once shared, the past is a great place to visit, but not a good place to stay. This is indeed really true. Our past is something that we have personally gone through and not everyone really understands your thought processes right then and there. Hence, it is really unfair to judge someone based on their past experiences and actions. What we can really learn from our past is that we can reflect on the things that had happened, and know what to do in the future to prevent the similar fate, or if you did something good, what were the factors that had constituted to this success, and thus a repetition would be a good choice in the future too.

I have seen many people, heard many stories, and personally went through some ugly past myself, and from a third person point of view, it is often people getting a negative impression of you. However, as I slowly grow up, I start to not look at people through colored lenses, but start identifying their strengths in these weaknesses. Indeed it is really easy to pick up bad points about a person, and throw it to them face value, but hard to surface one’s strengths. Through talking to people, knowing more about them got me to realise how they actually do have strengths in them to overcome that weakness.

I was in service the other day, and pastor preached that whatever the devil throws at you, God will always give us the strength to overcome it. No matter is it failures, fall outs, quarrels, trials and tribulations. All bad things are from the devil; God never instigates it. He only allows certain fate to befall upon you, to grow you in faith, to strengthen you weakness. In any adversities, God will always provide the provision; He will always give you the sword to slay the devil.

Through my dialogue sessions with people who face difficulties in their lives, I have learnt one really important thing. That is to appreciate the things that you have, before time makes you appreciate what you had. I’m not cursing anyone, but say you have been taking the love showered to you from your mother for granted, and one day, she just died of a heart attack, or a road accident. What then? So I have made it a point to myself, that whatever I have, I will treasure it close to my heart, I will live by day, appreciating the fact that whatever belongs to me is fully utilized, whatever bonds that I have I will strengthen.

Some people say it is fate, getting to know someone, say your lover, spouse, or a close friend. But as a Christian, I know that it is God, who shows you new people in your life, whom you can devote your time, love and respect to. God has His own timetable, as to reveal certain things to you. Maybe you may see your adversities as small blessing in disguise, but only later, when God says ‘okay I shall reveal it unto you’, that’s when you get to see the true bloom of His glory. For rejection is for protection, and also, it is God’s way of saying, ‘you’re headed to the wrong direction’.

When I reflect upon my past, I recalled the times when I really cried out to God, like why did He allow certain things to happen to me, and I admit, I was bitter towards Him. I mean, I prayed, and prayed, but it feels like He doesn’t listen to me at all. Now as time has passed, I see things in full, and realise how it was really God’s plans after all, to protect me from the things that could have happen should I cling onto that hope, should I carry on that path. Sometimes even, I feel that my actions then were really stupid, naïve, and childish, but that is just life, to mature out of our childishness. And really, who’s to say? Perhaps five years down the road, I’ll reflect and remark that my time spent when I’m 15 is childish.

The past is indeed a great place to visit, to reminisce, to take out that album of picture-perfect, picturesque photo memories, feel all nostalgic about your childhood, how it was so stress-free, and all. Perhaps sometimes, visit the not so pretty past, and try to learn something from there. But one word of advice is that we should not be stuck in out past, we should not be regressive all the time. For we are living in the present, and what’s more, the best days of our lives are ahead of us! Who really needs the past, with the allure of something new?

Moving on, we’re all now, in the present. 2011 November 25th (as of today). Today, this is who I am, I am a student, I am 15 years old, I have X amount of money, X amount of friends, I look like this. No one can change that, no one can alter who you are; no one can put you down except yourself, who allow anything of this sort to happen to you. God created us all perfectly in His image, but we are imperfect due to the temptations of sin. I have once shared with my close friend that God has given us this powerful freedom; the freedom of choice.

In everything that we do, we have a decision. Like for me, I have decided to quit MEP, change my piano timing, change my guitar timing to suit the piano, just so I could go to cell group meetings on Fridays. We all are given the freedom of choice as to move along our walk in life. Choices that we make now affects our future, but always bear in mind God has already planned your life for you flawlessly, He does not impromptu-ishly and spontaneously shape your life in the given circumstances. Imagine your life as a humongous flowchart, and whatever you choose, be it good or bad, we will still reach our end point.

If you ask me, I’ll definitely tell you there are good choices and bad choices. Like how people say there’s no right or wrong in literature, there is always a more right or more wrong answer. Similarly, in life, there is a more right choice, and a more wrong choice, and the beauty of it all, is that we’re given the freedom of choice i.e. we are responsible for our own future. We ourselves dictate our lives, and let no one around you change that about you. You have your toll over your life. We live in the present, we are living right here right now. We are who we are by the grace of God, and from now, every decision we make, every step we take, decides our future, should it be bright, or gloomy, should it be plated with gold, or otherwise.

Have you ever thought what you are going to be in 3 years time? That’s not a really long time later, but I just had breakfast with this cell group friend, and she shared with me how she did this ‘exercise’ with her mentor, and she shared with me her picture-perfect visualization in 3 years time. Well, imagine a world full of possibilities, and the absence of impossibilities. Where will you go? What will you do? What will you be in 3 years time? Would you have dropped out of school to work? Would you be in the pre-university, poly, or like me, serving my time in the army?

The future is indeed a really huge question mark in my head, which have stayed there for a really long time. What will I be when I grow up? I was talking to my friend a few months back about this, recalling my youth. I was like, ‘hey, what is your ambition; what do you want to be when you grow up?’, and we were talking about how our first ambition when we were a kid was to be a policeman, or a fireman, teacher or doctor. Perhaps some of you still hold these dreams and ambitions to your heart, and are working hard to this goal.

The future is yours to behold, the future is yours to shape, the future is yours to achieve. My dad once gave me this ‘lecture’ quite a while back, and it was one of the rarer occasions when I felt that it was logical, made sense and was applicable now. He reminded me of this family when we went overseas with who brought their books with them, secluded themselves from certain activities, and study. The head of the family, the father, earns a hundred thousand dollars a month as a surgeon. He asked me, do I want to be like the kids, suffering for perhaps the first 23 years of their lives prior to their graduation from the university, and be like their father earning big bucks, or be satisfied with what I have?

He asked me if the kids were crazy, I said yes. But he told me it really is subjective; if they know what they want to do, want to be in life, they will pursue it at all cost. Perhaps suffer, be ostracized for the first part of their lives. But when they grow up, as the company heads in Singapore are blind, and only look at your ‘piece of paper’ i.e. your qualifications, these people will get the jobs, and become your boss, the rest is history, their lives from then would be a bed of roses. Or would we enjoy the first part of our lives, and struggle hand to mouth when we grow up?

Who cares what people look and perceive you as? So long as you know what you want, you believe in yourself, you pursue what you set your eyes on, what does those minor slanders behind your back compared to your achievement in life? Our future is ours to grab, it is ours to shape. We are held responsible for our own actions and decision now, affecting our future. Like what my dad said, do we want to be satisfied with what we have now, continue on with our lives, sufficed with a $5000-$10 000 range monthly household income? Yes indeed we can survive, but we won’t be able to enjoy the luxuries of the rich and famous.

There are people out there earning truckloads of cash some even by the hour, or the day, or week. Who are we then, if we do not have the qualifications now, and later on in life, although working like dogs behind a computer, or by a desk in the office, yet receive a fraction of what those ‘qualified’ people who simply brush off responsibilities to their ‘downstairs’ are paid for?

Together, our past, present, and future makes us who we are. Should we leave on a legacy to our name, or simply be an insignificant digit contributing to the statistics of humanity, a number to add onto the 7 billion population of the world? You decide. God bless you! Have a great week ahead!

October232011

Fasting

It has really been a long time since I have posted on my blog! Well, it is primarily due to the fact that I have examinations lately, and I finally have a breather after it, and that is now! Some may be asking about my results, and I have to say, I’ve made a marked improvement from the previous semester, but it is still not very good. I guess I really have to work extra hard this holidays, to pull together my string of knowledge. I’ll make it short this time!

 

It has really been a long time, so forgive me if the whole post don’t tie together nicely, but I’ll try my best. It is a day before the O Levels, before all the secondary fours embark on this journey that will change their lives. In a year’s time, it would be my turn, and I would face a similar challenge. Like what I did for the last batch of sec fours, I would fast for them, throughout the whole course of their o levels.

 

Now wait a moment, many of you will say, ‘Fast? You Malay uh?’ well, there is a common misconception that fasting is only for Malays, or for Muslims. Well, the fact is, Christians do fast as well. So what is a fast? What does it mean to be fasting? For me, as a Christian, our definition of fasting is not merely ceasing to eat and drink, like the ideological background of Islamic faith. For Christians, when we fast, we may not be ceasing to eat, but could also mean, not to do a certain act, or ceasing from a particular activity for a period of time.

 

For Christians, why we fast, is not a way to feel for the hungry, and homeless, unlike the Islamic faith. We could see it in that light too, but the main reason we fast, is to express our form of ‘sacrifice’ to God. For us, fasting is tied closely to prayer. That is why we say, we fast and pray. There is no point fasting, and not praying for the cause we fast for. Say for example this instance that I’m fasting for the sec fours, I do have to pray for them too, if not my fasting will be of no use, except a torture to my stomach.

 

As Christians, we fast to let God know “we are humbling ourselves; we are making a sacrifice, so would You please hear our prayer?” we fast, so that God will see that our cause for the fast is worth while, so that what we pray for shall be made known to be important. Of course, there are plenty other reasons why we fast, but yeah, basically, this are why.

 

There are many types of fasting in Christianity, unlike that of the Islam faith. As Christians, we may go on a full fast (no food, only water 24 hours a day), or 6-to-6 (no food from 6am to 6pm or other timing, for 12 hours a day), or secular music fast (no secular music, only Christian audio), and plenty others. These fasts may be as short as a day, to as long as a month, depending on individuals.

 

For me, I’ll usually go for the 6-to-6 fast, which means a certainty of missing lunch. That’s when my friends come in. ‘Joel! Why you not eating with us?’ then I’ll go like ‘I’m fasting.’ This is the part where I HATE the most ‘Fast fast fast, fast for what?’ or maybe ‘SIAO UH? Fast for what? You Malay uh?’ or other variations. Some of these words are from Christians themselves too, and I really do feel bad. These words do hurt me, but of course I won’t let it show. So I hope, at this juncture, after explaining what fasting is, and have named all the differences from a Christian-fast to an Islamic-based fast is, that no one would ask me those things, and let me be.

 

The O Levels is approaching, and I can really see how the sec fours are, as I have church friends who are sitting for o levels themselves. Now I think of myself in their shoes, I really do feel afraid, as I will face that myself next year! By then, I do hope someone out there will be fasting and praying for me, and my cohort! Till then, GOOD LUCK SEC FOURS!! I will be partners with you in your ‘suffering’, hoping that would spur you on, God bless you :)

September52011

Happiness - Part 1

What is happiness? Well before I get into that, I’d like to say a few things. Well, it has really been long ever since I have been going into these one-word studies, or expository. Guess I really had better things to do. But now it seems, like it is all going back to winter; cold, depressive, lonely and ‘sick’ (not the wrong way, but just –sick-) Of course, you may think, what? Joel? Come on! Since when is he sad, or lonely, or depressive? Well just so you know, I have a heart too! Well, anyway, guess it is all normal for people to be emotive once in a while. You see, my life is like a cyclic emotional structure, somewhat like a Sine or Cosine Curvature, whereby it fluctuates. The only difference is that mine happens irregularly; it has an unfixed period, if you say. Well, the smile I wear, I guess, as many of you too, is really just a face-paint, a mask, whatever you call it, whereby I hide behind, and shield all my emotions. Sometimes I just feel like breaking down, or just letting out. Still, I hide them all, to keep my ‘reputation’ or whatever that’s left. Guess that just any of you guys who bother to read this would realise this about me, had I not referred to this example to you guys before. Guess this time, I choose not to let my modulus sign take its toll on me, and let my feelings rollercoaster down, down, down.

 

Anyway, to the main topic – Happiness. Well, guess this series would be somewhat like, the episode of Love, or Finding Meaning to the World, and note that the latter, I have not concluded yet! So do look out for it coming out possibly, and most likely after the exams. Well, the dictionary refers to ‘happiness’ as the quality or state of being delighted, glad, pleased etc. Well, the definition of happiness to me is the measurements of people who care for me, and who are around me. This intangible element usually sparks off joy, and laughter. Well, to be honest, I’m someone who’s pretty easy to please; a little gesture from you guys, a note, a post-it, a greeting, a knuck-knock or a high five, already injects fulfillment and joy. Guess now you know just how to make me happy. I do admit that I get stubborn sometimes when I’m sad, and well, almost nothing can stop me from being that way.

 

Well, happiness is a choice, especially in the state of mind I am in right now, or rather, lately; I find that that is a very hard choice. I mean it is just my sudden condescend to lowliness and “unprowity”. The pursuit of happiness is something that someone must brace themselves for, as it is not something easy, or attainable. I learnt the hard way as to the consequences of overestimating people’s impressionism on you. What I inferred from one of my friend’s messages is that if we feel angry, it is a very strong indicator that you actually care. I mean, if you feel hate, that is of course the flip side of happiness, you do actually share a fair bit of happiness with that respective party. That is, say you’re angry at this person for behaving or doing something unpleasant, you actually do care for the person enough to be angry. Anyway, I learnt that actually different people see you in different lights. Some may love your actions so very much, and others, well, perhaps draw fine lines with each and every of your actions. You know, pick on them and say how bad they are.

 

You know, it is very easy to find bad points in people, I mean; you can just coin anything out from the sky and falsely accuse someone of something that they did not do, or feel, or tried to express or whatever. The hard part is always to find someone’s weakness and turn that into a positive light, to twitch it into something that is so heart-warming, that the person goes ‘AWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWWW’ kinda? Well, guess that’s what I am trying to do lately. Well, I just had the worst fallout of friendship I ever had in my secondary school life. Maybe that constitutes to this negative mood on the topic ‘Happiness’ which seems so ironical, but guess that’s just me! Gosh, keep on multitasking while writing this! Guess I’ll continue the next time!!

August212011

All Things Bright and Beautiful - Owl City.

Hey Guys! It has been a long time since I have posted here! Guess it’s just all me being busy with stuff! Anyway, my friend recently lent me the latest Owl City album – All Things Bright and Beautiful. His songs are awfully nice, as usual, with his awesome voice of cause. Well, what I noticed is that, he has a new style, or rather, in the creation of his songs. Well, he used to write songs mostly of love, (not that he don’t now) but now, proclaiming his love for God in his songs. This is really interesting, and I’m gonna share with you guys what I found in his songs in this new album. Even as the album name itself, as a friend has pointed out, is a hymn – All Things Bright and Beautiful:

 

Refrain:
All things bright and beautiful,
All creatures great and small,
All things wise and wonderful,
The Lord God made them all.
 

Each little flower that opens,
Each little bird that sings,
He made their glowing colours,
He made their tiny wings.

Refrain

The purple-headed mountain,
The river running by,
The sunset and the morning,
That brightens up the sky;

Refrain

The cold wind in the winter,
The pleasant summer sun,
The ripe fruits in the garden,
He made them every one;

Refrain

The tall trees in the greenwood,
The meadows for our play,
The rushes by the water,
To gather every day;

Refrain

He gave us eyes to see them,
And lips that we might tell
How great is God Almighty,
Who has made all things well.”

 

Just the thought of the album itself gives us immediate impression that it has got to do with God. The first song in his album is The Real World:

 

“I saw the autumn leaves peel up off the street,
Take wing on the balmy breeze and sweep you off your feet.
And you blushed as they scooped you up on sugar maple wings
To gaze down on the city below, ablaze with wondrous things

Downy feathers kiss your face and flutter everywhere.
Reality is a lovely place but I wouldn’t want to live there.
I wouldn’t want to live there.

Weighed down by heavy lids and lunar lullabies,
I knew you were wide awake, ‘cause you smile with your eyes.

Downy feathers kiss your face and flutter everywhere.
Reality is a lovely place but I wouldn’t want to live there.

From the green belt balcony, the wildfires look so pretty.
Ponderosa canopy, I’d never leave if it were up to me.
To the ruby redwood tree, and to the velvet climbing ivy:
Painted all mahogany, I’d never leave if it were up to me.

With a starry brush, paint the dusk venetian blue
‘Cause in the evening hush, you’ll never believe the view.
And when the leaves return and their whisperings fill the night,
They’ll freeze and burn where fire and ice collide.

Can you feel a silk embrace in the satin air?
If we dissolve without a trace, will the real world even care?
Downy feathers kiss your face and flutter everywhere.
Reality is a lovely place but I wouldn’t want to live there.

I saw the autumn leaves peel up off the street,
Take wing on the balmy breeze and sweep you off your feet.”

 

Firstly we gotta realise that Adam Young is an introvert; he keeps things to himself. The only way he expresses himself is through song writing or writing into his blog: http://owlcityblog.com/. Then again, being an introvert, as expressed for himself, gives him lots of time on his hands to think deeply about things. This song speaks of how the real world, the one we live in, has many beautiful things around. This is a great starter that precedes the name of the album – All Things Bright and Beautiful. It describes the beautiful surroundings that we fail to realise when we progress through life between the rhymes in the song. It sounds so beautiful when you hear the song and read the lyrics. Not long ago, I came across this tumblr article that might fit in right here for you to think about:

“You are not exhilarated with life. You are not surprised - you start taking things for granted. The innocent heart is continuously in wonder like a small child collecting seashells or colored stones on the beach or just running hither and thither in a garden after butterflies and being surprised by everything. That’s why children ask so many questions.
If you go for a morning walk with a child you start feeling exhausted, because the child goes on asking about this and that, asking questions that cannot be answered: “Why are the trees green?” and “Why is the rose red?” But why is the child asking? He is intrigued. He is intrigued in everything. The word interest comes from a root that means to be involved in - inter-esse(existence). The child is involved in everything that is happening.
The more you become knowledgeable, the less and less you remain involved in life. You simply pass by - you are not concerned with the cow and the dog and the rose bush and the sun and the bird; you are not concerned. Your mind has become very narrow; you are just going to your office or back to your home. You are just running after money more and more, that’s all. Or after power, but you are no longer related to life in its multidimensionality. To be in wonder is to relate with everything, and to be constantly receptive.

Osho”

So should we just walk through life everyday and take things for granted? Or should we start to take notice of the beautiful things our Creator has made for us, and marvel it? I guess that’s what Adam indirectly implied over here through this song.

 

His next song in the album is Deer in the Headlights:

 

“Met a girl in the parking lot
And all I did was say hello
Her pepper spray made it rather hard for me to walk her home
But I guess that’s the way it goes

Tell me again, was it love at first sight,
When I walked by and you caught my eye?
Didn’t you know love could shine this bright?
Well smile because you’re the deer in headlights

Met a girl with a graceful charm,
But when beauty met the beast he froze
Got the sense I was not her type by the black eye and bloody nose
But I guess that’s the way it goes

Tell me again, was it love at first sight,
When I walked by and you caught my eye?
Didn’t you know love could shine this bright?
Well smile because you’re the deer in headlights

It’s suffocating to say, but the female mystique takes my breath away
So give me a smile or give me a sneer ‘cause I’m trying to guess here

Tell me again, was it love at first sight,
When I walked by and you caught my eye?
Didn’t you know love could shine this bright?
I’m sorry I ever tried

Tell me again, was it love at first sight,
When I walked by and you caught my eye?
Didn’t you know love could shine this bright?

If life was a game you would never play nice
If love was a beam you’d be blind in both eyes
Put your sunglasses on ‘cause you’re the deer in the headlights

You’re the deer in the headlights

You’re the deer in the headlights”

 

I guess it is obvious enough that this song is of a girl in which he admires, and metaphorically represents her as a deer It is not to say that the girl he refers to is literally a deer, with hooves, a brown pelt and antlers – but the metaphor is used rather as an intellectual symbol to convey her being like a deer – swift, nimble-footed, and shy. By using this banal metaphor, he intends to relate the idea that the girl is as such. Then again, back to the overall theme of the album, All Things Bright and Beautiful, he conveys this extended idea of things and creations being beautiful, in this song, a girl. I love the way he put “If life was a game you would never play nice; If love was a beam you’d be blind in both eyes.” Awesome!

The next song in his album is Angels. This is where his starts to become supernatural:

“Wake me if you’re out there!

Through the glass in my bedroom window
In the bushes far below,
I thought I saw an unfamiliar shadow
Among the ones I so clearly know

I’ve been sleeping with the nightlight unplugged
With a note on the rocking chair
That says, “I’m dreaming of the life I once loved
So wake me if you’re out there”

Living close to the ground is seventh heaven ‘cause there are angels all around
Among my frivolous thoughts, I believe there are beautiful things seen by the astronauts

So wake me if you’re out there!
Wake me if you’re out there!

In the dust on my cellar staircase,
A pair of footprints followed me
I saw a flicker in the fake fireplace
Blinked again but there was nothing to see

I’ve been leaving all the windows unlocked with a basket by the oak tree
‘Cause I’ll be picking up the acorns that fall off
If you’ll be climbing up to meet me

Living close to the ground is seventh heaven ‘cause there are angels all around!
Among my frivolous thoughts, I believe there are beautiful things seen by the astronauts!
So wake me if you’re out there!

I keep my knees black and blue ‘cause they often hit the hardwood floor
(Wake me if you’re out there)
And I believe, so I’m not praying to the ceiling anymore

I’ve been sleeping with the nightlight unplugged
With a note on the rocking chair
That says, “I’m dreaming of the life I once loved
So wake me if you’re out there”

Living close to the ground is seventh heaven ‘cause there are angels all around!
Among my frivolous thoughts, I believe there are beautiful things seen by the astronauts!

The indications reveal (Wake me if you’re out there)
That few of us realize life is quite surreal
So if you’re dying to see,
I guarantee there are angels around your vicinity

So if you’re dying to see,
I guarantee there are angels around your vicinity.”

Before the album came out, youtube showcased a track-by-track interview with Adam Young himself of his songs in the new album. He said this about this song:

 “The song Angels is a bit of a spiritual, injected song. It says a lot about the fact, or kind of the idea, that there might be angels really around us. And the song talks about someone who is sort of seeing these surreal out of nowhere traces of what might be an angel. And playing to the fact that what if you could sort of pick a time and a place to meet up with one of them or somehow have contact with them. Just the idea of that by itself is interesting to me. And the idea of angels by itself.. It’s like, you can’t study them, you can’t physically read about them. So they can be anything to anybody and that’s an interesting way of looking at things.” 

When he referred to seventh heaven, I do not suppose he refers to the Islamic highest heaven, where God and the most exalted angels dwell, but I think he refers it to be like that of in the belief. He is a Christian by the way, and we’ll be seeing few of his Christian-based works in the later songs. Well, when he said that there are Angels around our vicinity, it immediately struck a chord in me and I began to think, is he talking about the real angels or the people around us that are like angels to us. You know, like how I referred some friends as angels to me in my previous posts. Also, I think that this song is also about escapism; the avoidance of reality. He being the imaginative sort of person, gives us the impression that most of his songs are really of supernatural, and surreal things. Yet again, relating back to the theme : All Things Bright and Beautiful

The next song in his album is Dreams Don’t Turn to Dust:

“Splashdown in the silver screen into a deep dramatic scene
I swam through the theater, or maybe I’m just a dreamer
Like a kite in the bright midday, Wonder stole my breath away
Shy sonata for Mercury; the stars always sing so pretty

This picnic will soon depart
Real life, I’m sad to see you go
I’ll miss you with all my heart,
But I’d rather be alone
‘Cause I couldn’t live without
Sunsets that dazzle in the dusk,
So I’ll drag the anchor up
And rest assured, ‘cause dreams don’t turn to dust
Dreams don’t turn to dust

I made for the countryside, and my eyes never grew so wide
Apple raspberry river blue, I don’t wanna leave without you
In the sound I’ll gladly drown into the emerald underground
I rub my eyes ‘cause it’s hard to see surrounded by all this beauty

This picnic will soon depart
Real life, I’m sad to see you go
I’ll miss you with all my heart,
But I’d rather be alone
‘Cause I couldn’t live without
Sunsets that dazzle in the dusk,
So I’ll drag the anchor up
And rest assured, ‘cause dreams don’t turn to dust

(I’m sad to see you go, but I’d rather be alone)

When tiger eyes begin making you blush!
And when diamonds boast that they can’t be crushed
Let them go ‘cause dreams don’t turn to dust

This picnic will soon depart
Real life, I’m sad to see you go
I’ll miss you with all my heart,
But I’d rather be alone
‘Cause I couldn’t live without
Sunsets that dazzle in the dusk,
So I’ll drag the anchor up
And rest assured, ‘cause dreams don’t turn to dust
Dreams don’t turn to dust
Dreams don’t turn to dust

I’ll rest assured ‘cause dreams don’t turn to dust.”

Well, I believe this song just remind us in his own way how not to let go of the visions and dreams given to us. As much as life can bring us down, there are “impossible” things in which he believes we can achieve, as mentioned in this song. It is a really beautiful way of saying “If you stay faithful and believe in yourself, God will not short-change you” in the refrain : “rest assured ‘cause dreams don’t turn to dust” your dreams will never shatter, if you believe in yourself. I particularly love the part where he sings in the bridge how “When tiger eyes begin making you blush! And when diamonds boast that they can’t be crushed Let them go ‘cause dreams don’t turn to dust” it really spoke to me, saying how really impossible things, like looking into the tiger eyes, which are meant to intimidate you in fear, makes you blush, as though it seduces you. Or even when diamonds (oppressions and obstacles) boast how strong they are, we should let these things go ‘cuz God never short-changes us in our quest to fulfill our destinies.

In the track-by-track interview Adam says that the song is about “Being who you are, no matter what comes down the pipeline, and it’s a commentary about reaching for those dreams regardless of what you’re going through, or what is on the horizon… …”  Again, Bright and Beautiful.

The next song, Honey and the Bee is a really cute vocal with Breanne Düren:

Don’t remind me that some days I’m the windshield, and other days I’m just a lucky bug
As cold iron rails leave old mossy trails through the countryside
The crow and the beanfield are my best friends, but boy I need a hug (Boy I need a hug)
‘Cause my heart stops without you
There’s something about you
That makes me feel alive

If the green left the grass on the other side,
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

Don’t remind me, I’m a chickadee in love with the sky
But that’s clearly not a lot to crow about
‘Cause when the stars silhouette me,
I’m scared they’ll forget me and flicker out

I taste honey but I haven’t seen the hive
Yeah, I didn’t look, I didn’t even try
But still my heart stops without you,
‘Cause there’s something about you that makes me feel alive

If the green left the grass on the other side,
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

We are honey and the bee

Backyard of butterflies surrounded me
And I fell in love with you, like bees to honey
So let’s up and leave the weeping to the willow tree
And pour our tears in the sea

I swear there’s a lot of vegetables out there that crop up for air
And yet I never thought we were two peas in a pod
‘Till you suddenly bloomed, and I knew
That I’d always love you
Oh, I’ll always love you too

If the green left the grass on the other side
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

If the green left the grass on the other side
I would make like a tree and leave
But if I reached for your hand would your eyes get wide?
Who knew the other side could be so green?

And if I reached for your hand for the rest of my life
Who knew the other side could be so green?”

This song is a really cute way of him expressing two people in need of love, by representing them as bee and honey. It’s really similar to one of his previous song: bird and the worm. I seriously ROFL-ED when he screamed in the bridge “I swear there’s a lot of vegetables out there”. Nothing much to say about this song, but I really love the really cute voice of Breanne Düren, which went so well with Adam Young: http://www.youtube.com/watch?v=BswfqrQoz3o. For the millionth time, again, it shows things BRIGHT AND BEAUTIFUL.

The next song is Kamikaze:

“The princess in her flower bed
Pulled the jungle underground
Where cherry bombs stain the blackbirds red
And explosions never make a sound

Oh comet come down!
Kamikaze over me
And I come alive!
My midnight melody
Oh comet come down!

My captain on a snowy horse is coming back to take me home
(He’s coming back to take me home!)
He’ll find me fighting back a terrible force
‘Cause I’m not afraid to die alone

Oh comet come down!
Kamikaze over me
And I come alive!
My midnight melody
Oh comet come down!
Kamikaze over me
And I come alive!
My midnight melody
Oh comet come down!

Oh comet come - oh comet come down!

Brave down the open road!
Maybe I’ll ride
And fight back the undertow!
To save my life!
Breathe in the ember glow!
Maybe I’ll fly
And rove where you want to go!
With the eagle eye

Brave down the open road!
Maybe I’ll ride
And fight back the undertow!
To save my life!
Breathe in the ember glow!
Maybe I’ll fly
And rove where you want to go!
With the eagle eye.”

Initially, I thought this song is really disturbing. But upon close examination, I realised why I felt that way. The devil in me is twitching. This song has close reference to genesis and revelations. This is the most interesting and deeply embellished song in the whole album to me, because it has lots of reference to God. ‘The princess in the flower bed’ could refer to Eve in the garden of Eden, and ‘pulled the jungle underground’ may refer to her and Adam being kicked out of Eden (Genesis 3:24). ‘Cherry bombs stain blackbirds red’ might as well refer to the blood spills for sin – the atonement of Christ’s death and resurrection. Blackbirds may even refer to a certain degree, slaves (kanaka), which then again shows us how slaves are set free by the blood of Jesus. ‘Explosions never make a sound’ – from a source, it refers to (in Christian tradition) the crucifixion and resurrection. I think that it is a rather valid inference, as from the start to the end of the verse, it completes the Old Testament and opens up to the New Testament, by mentioning the life of Christ.

In the chorus, the word kamikaze, I think just refers to “and crash over” so in a phrase, it says ‘Oh comet come down, and crash over me”, instead of WWII and the Japanese fighter planes. This could just be him thinking of the second coming of Jesus. Either that or it is him wishing over a shooting star for things to happen. The chorus perfectly links the first and second verse.

In the second verse, ‘my captain on a snowy horse is coming back to take me home
(He’s coming back to take me home!)’ refers to God on the white horse in revelations (Revelations 19:11-16) “11 Now I saw heaven opened, and behold, a white horse. And He who sat on him was called Faithful and True, and in righteousness He judges and makes war. 12 His eyes were like a flame of fire, and on His head were many crowns. He had a name written that no one knew except Himself. 13 He was clothed with a robe dipped in blood, and His name is called The Word of God. 14 And the armies in heaven, clothed in fine linen, white and clean, followed Him on white horses. 15 Now out of His mouth goes a sharp sword, that with it He should strike the nations. And He Himself will rule them with a rod of iron. He Himself treads the winepress of the fierceness and wrath of Almighty God. 16 And He has on His robe and on His thigh a name written: 

      KING OF KINGS AND LORD OF LORDS.

It is just awesome how he incorporates Christianity into his music. Beautiful.

The next song is January 28, 1986 followed by Galaxies

(Snippets from Ronald Reagan’s Space Shuttle “Challenger” Tragedy Address)

Ladies and Gentlemen, today is a day for mourning and remembering.
They had a hunger to explore the universe and discover its truths,
and they had that special grace, that special spirit that says,
“Give me a challenge, and I’ll meet it with joy.”
The crew of the Space Shuttle Challenger honored us by the manner
in which they lived their lives. We will never forget them as they
prepared for their journey and waved goodbye and slipped the surly
bonds of earth to touch the face of God.

Call back the CapCom,
Tick off the time bomb,
Let felicity fly!
Armor the airlock,
Blanket the bedrock,
And kiss the planet goodbye!

Dear God, I was terribly lost
When the galaxies crossed and the sun went dark
But dear God, you’re the only north star
I would follow this far

(Da da da da, da, da, da, da da da da
Da da da da, da, da, da)

Fight back the flight deck,
Bring on the breakneck,
Cue the solar eclipse! (Sun went dark)
Summit the sunset,
Dovetail the dragnet,
And blow your backbone to bits!

Dear God, I was terribly lost
When the galaxies crossed and the sun went dark
But dear God, you’re the only north star
I would follow this far

Oh telescope, keep an eye on my only hope,
Lest I blink and get swept off the narrow road
Hercules, you’ve got nothing to say to me,
‘Cause you’re not the blinding light that I need
For He is the saving grace of the galaxies!

He is the saving grace of the galaxies!

Dear God, I was terribly lost
When the galaxies crossed and the sun went dark
But dear God, you’re the only North Star
I would follow this far!”

This song is a really space-related song which precedes Alligator Sky. January 28 1986 is a snippet from Ronald Reagan’s Space Shuttle “Challenger” Tragedy Address, in which reports the 1986 Challenger disaster. From Wikipedia:

The Space Shuttle Challenger disaster occurred on January 28, 1986, when Space Shuttle Challenger broke apart 73 seconds into its flight, leading to the deaths of its seven crew members. The spacecraft disintegrated over the Atlantic Ocean, off the coast of central Florida at 11:38 am EST (16:38 UTC). Disintegration of the entire vehicle began after an O-ring seal in its right solid rocket booster (SRB) failed at liftoff. The O-ring failure caused a breach in the SRB joint it sealed, allowing pressurized hot gas from within the solid rocket motor to reach the outside and impinge upon the adjacent SRB attachment hardware and external fuel tank. This led to the separation of the right-hand SRB’s aft attachment and the structural failure of the external tank. Aerodynamic forces promptly broke up the orbiter.

The crew compartment and many other vehicle fragments were eventually recovered from the ocean floor after a lengthy search and recovery operation. Although the exact timing of the death of the crew is unknown, several crew members are known to have survived the initial breakup of the spacecraft. However, the shuttle had no escape system and the astronauts did not survive the impact of the crew compartment with the ocean surface.”

It beautifully transits to the song Galaxies. This song again, shows us how Adam relates his songs to Christ. He refers to God as the only North Star. The North Star is also known as the Polaris; the pole star of the second magnitude, close to the north pole of the heavens, of the constellation Ursa Minor : the outer most star of the handle of the Little Dipper. Perhaps it is to say how the 7 who died in the accident may be “lost” in the galaxy, and finding their way back to God’s arms by following the North Star. Also, the reference to Hercules, not as the Greek God, son of Zeus, but perhaps men. Maybe he is trying to say that men can fail, like in this case, technologically, and he went on singing that Hercules has nothing to say to him because ‘‘Cause you’re not the blinding light that I need; For He is the saving grace of the galaxies!’. This expresses how men are like blinding light that misleads us away from the hands of God, or at least to me, and also how we only need God, for he is the saving grace, in this case, relating to the galaxies, showing how supreme is the majesty God.

It is also in the comments of this song where I saw how even atheists (people who hate God) were touched by Adam’s music. Amazingly, it made me think if one person can bring light into so many lives through his music, what more can we, by our words? Indeed, AWESOME!

The next song is Hospital Flowers:

I survived a dreadful accident in the car crash of the century
My shattered hopes collapsed on cold cement
But in the back of the ambulance, I’d never felt so content

A high-speed collision gave a new sense of sight to me
And now my vision can render the scene
A blurry image of wreckage and roadside debris
Happiness returned to me through a grave emergency

I tossed and turned in sterile apathy until the violets arrived for me
The bouquet burst and blossoms filled the room
And the place got smaller as they grew taller and taught me to bloom

A high-speed collision gave a new sense of sight to me
And now my vision can render the scene
A blurry image of wreckage and roadside debris
Happiness returned to me through a grave emergency

The curtains decayed, the daylight poured in
I was never afraid of the darkness again
My burns were third degree, but I’d been set free
‘Cause grace had finally found its way to me

A high-speed collision gave a new sense of sight to me
And now my vision can render the scene
A blurry image of wreckage and roadside debris
Happiness returned to me, happiness returned to me
Happiness returned to me through a grave emergency

Through a grave emergency
Happiness returned to me through a grave emergency.”

I choose to believe that this song does not literally mean him being in an actual accident, but just adversaries where things hit hard in your face, and you are shattered, perhaps your heart. But through the adversary, it gave you a new take of life, perhaps after going through though times, you get to see life in a new light, and not take life for granted. It is as though it makes you stronger after ever crash, and through these bad times, visitors (true friends around) in the hospital bring you flowers (shower you with care) so much so that you don’t feel so bad about going through the incident, but made you feel good about being in that situation. It tells us how life is so fragile, so lets not wait long to do the things of our heart’s desire. It is just amazing how he puts in play so many different ideas to represent one thing.

The next song, is the climax of the album, Alligator Sky (Feat. Shawn Chrytopher):

Adam Young:
Where was I when the rockets came to life
And carried you away into the alligator sky?
Even though I’ll never know what’s up ahead
I’m never lettin’ go, I’m never lettin’ go

Shawn Chrystopher:
Uh uh, that’s not a plane, that’s me
I’m sittin’ where I’m supposed to
Floatin’ on the cloud, can’t nobody come close to
The concrete and the sky switch places
So now my ceiling is painted with cosmic spaces
Firecracker to the moon, keep your eyes shut
Blastin’ off like a rocket from the ground up
I used to catch a cab on the Monday
Now the taxi’s sellin’ lights on the runway, fly
Condo on the milky way
A house on the cloud and God’s my landlord
And for my rent all I pay is my drive, I got that
So if you need me you can find me in the alligator sky

Adam:
Where was I when the rockets came to life
And carried you away into the alligator sky?
Even though I’ll never know what’s up ahead
I’m never lettin’ go, I’m never lettin’ go

Roller coaster through the atmosphere
I’m drowning in this starry serenade
Where ecstasy becomes cavalier
My imagination’s taking me away

Reverie whispered in my ear
I’m scared to death that I’ll never be afraid
Roller coaster through the atmosphere
My imagination’s taking me away

Shawn:
Uh, now I’mma dance like I never dance
Sing like I never sing, dream like I never dreamed
Or try to, ‘cause we’ve been lied to
That the sun is somethin’ that we can’t fly to
Well, I sit on my star and see street lights
Look up, ha, you’ll miss me if you blink twice
Imagination is hot and if you got it you can meet me
When you see me in the alligator sky

Adam:
Where was I when the rockets came to life
And carried you away into the alligator sky?
Even though I’ll never know what’s up ahead
I’m never lettin’ go, I’m never lettin’ go

In the alligator sky…”

Honestly, in my opinion, this song is the most important closure to the whole album. Alligator is a reptile in which many are afraid of. The sky, is the thing above our heads. When Adam wrote this song, I guess he was trying to express how we should raise our ceilings, that the sky is not our limitation. When he referred to the Alligator Sky, I guess he wanted to say how our hopes and dreams all seem so high, and that we may be afraid to go after them. But in the rap part, Shawn said ‘Or try to, ‘cause we’ve been lied to
that the sun is somethin’ that we can’t fly to’ here, he says how we can even fly to the Sun if that is our dream! Let the firecrackers light our fuse and take off to achieve our dreams!

The next song, The Yacht Club, well, is just about a girl, and there are many many metaphors representing them. The touch of Lights in the song made it rather sweet. Well, guess I should not go into that.

The last song, Plant Life:

“I saw a ghost on the stairs
And sheets on the tables and chairs
The silverware swam with the sharks in the sink
Even so, I don’t know what to think

I’ve been longing for daisies to push through the floor
And I wish plant life would grow all around me
So I won’t feel dead anymore, 
So I won’t feel dead anymore

I saw a bear in the den reading my textbooks again
The bats flowed like traffic as they poured from the attic
Heaven knows I could really use a friend

I’d rather waltz than just walk through the forest
The trees keep the tempo and they sway in time
Quartet of crickets chime in for the chorus
If I were to pluck on your heartstrings, would you strum on mine?

I’ve been longing for daisies to push through the floor
(I’ve never really felt like this before)
And I wish plant life would grow all around me
So I won’t feel dead anymore, 
So I won’t feel dead anymore

Your spirit is sweet, so pull off your sheet
And give me a ghost of a smile
Show me your teeth ‘cause you’re a teddy beneath
So just grin and bear it a while,
Just grin and bear it a while

I’d rather waltz than just walk through the forest
The trees keep the tempo and they sway in time
Quartet of crickets chime in for the chorus
If I were to pluck on your heartstrings, would you strum on mine?

The brook babbles on about nothing at all
A new leaf turns over, unwilling to fall

Tonight I’m busting out of this old haunted house
‘Cause I’m sick of waiting for all those spider webs to grow all around me
‘Cause I don’t feel dead anymore
And I’m not afraid anymore

I’d rather waltz than just walk through the forest
The trees keep the tempo and they swing in time
Quartet of crickets chime in for the chorus
If I were to pluck on your heart strings, would you strum on mine?

If I were to pluck on your heart strings, would you strum on mine?”

This is a really sweet imagery-filled song, by which refers to life. It really closes the whole album with the feeling of nature. I mean, the whole album is about things Bright and Beautiful, and what could be more beautiful than nature itself, the very creation of God. I guess what Adam wanted to say here is that although the world progresses, and things are build, God’s creations are still sovereign, and that he wants them to overflow in his life.

All in all, his songs inspired me, and made me more optimistic in life. It made me feel a little guilty as well, as I listen to the songs, as I have been missing out so many things in life, as he has called us to remember through his music. I hope that through this little sharing, you too can feel the same as I do, and be inspired to get on in life. A singer/songwriter is also known as an artist. If you were to say he is a great artist, I’d most definitely agree to you. Not only does he create music wondrously, he paints beautiful pictures in my mind and opens and closes ideas with the splendor of the Lord. Indeed he is a faithful Christian, and I do hope to be like him, creating and making people realise that All Things(are) Bright and Beautiful in God :)

August12011

Messed Up.

Hey guys! Well, I don’t know about you, but I’m really messed up inside lately. If you’re curious, well, it’s about relationships. Nope, I don’t have a girlfriend. It’s my heart’s inability to distinction between feelings and emotions, and it tends to bring back the past; incidents happened long time ago, and haunt me. No one is guaranteed a successful relationship, or friendship for that matter. Primarily because of one reason, as silly as it may seem like, it is because we have no teacher for that. No one can blame us for having an unhealthy relationship or friendship simply because none of us are taught this topic of love. Well, it is for us to realize along the path of life, what it really is, what it signify, how we go about doing so.

 

Personally, I’m messed up because of one reason: what is true love? I had one written this song a while ago, and thought it would be appropriate to let you guys understand my feelings. I have written this for a girl, a while back, in which memories LOVE to haunt me about.

 

You’re… … I’m… …

Verse 1

You’re the sun, I’m the moon,

We both shine; me and you.

I’m the sky, you’re the stars,

You light me up, just like mars.

 

You’re the wind, I’m the leaf,

Blow me with you, into my dreams.

You’re the paper, I’m the paint,

Light me world; never in vain.

 

Chorus

Lift me up, to the sky,

Looking down, all is mine,

‘Cause with you, it’s like the whole world is mine.

Bring me down, underground,

Looking up, that’s my crown,

‘Cause with you, the whole world’s small.

 

Verse 2

You’re the wave, I’m the boat,

Push me where you want to go.

I’m the sand, you’re the bucket,

Mould me to something with the spade.

 

You’re the tree, I’m the snail,

Slowly climbing, discovering you.

I’m the rain, you’re the clouds,

Hold me in place, hold my hand.

 

Chorus                     

Lift me up, to the sky,

Looking down, all is mine,

‘Cause with you, it’s like the whole world is mine.

Bring me down, underground,

Looking up, that’s my crown,

‘Cause with you, the whole world’s small.

 

Bridge

Your eyes are like sapphire,

Your hair is just like silk.

Your voice is just so soothing,

And your touch is just like pudding.

 

Chorus

Lift me up, to the sky,

Looking down, all is mine,

‘Cause with you, it’s like the whole world is mine.

Bring me down, underground,

Looking up, that’s my crown,

‘Cause with you, the whole world’s small.

 

Refrain

‘Cause with you, I don’t need much,

I just need you by my side.

‘Cause I’ve learnt how to cherish you,

And not to live without you.

 

I love you.

 

Anyway, it is just how my past came back and me and haunted me. It reminded me of her, and things we did together, although it was nothing. You know how, when your feelings fluctuate violently, leaving yourself unaware of the circumstances that just pass you by? Well I’m in that state of mind. I don’t know how, but it’s like my life had suddenly lost a flavour, an important essence in my life is just lost like that. It happened too quickly for me to react. Perhaps I’m being paranoid of something that I could never have dreamt of attaining. Perhaps that was never meant to be mine, a feeling was all that it had, and it is the only thing it can be. Traffic headed to one direction.

 

Have you ever felt this feeling that someone you care dearly for, suddenly drifts away from your grasp, for no particular reason? Have you ever felt the feeling that someone who you hold close to your heart has something bothering them, but you could not do anything, and just sit by to watch them suffer? Well I have, and it just adds complication to the matter of love. What is the feeling inside me? I need a teacher.

July252011

True friends in my life that I wanna thank God for.

In a blink of an eye, it is soon Q4 of 2011. Indeed, time files! In 2011, I had met many new people, in my new class, in church, outside school, in school… Some, shown me loyalty, but others, distrust. Through it all, everyone that I had came across this year broke the barrier of my self-awareness; where do I lay in the ranks of society. Everyone I met, from various backgrounds, having various thoughts of various things, I have discovered, and I found my place in the community. These are just a few examples of people in my life that has made an impact in my life, that I would really like to thank God for their presence. Don’t just look out for your name out there, but I hope you guys have the time to go through the things I said about the people here, and how they have touched my life. Perhaps through reading what I have to say, you would see resemblance as to people in your life that has loved you the way these people have done, for they are the friends in whom you wanna hold on tight, never letting them go!

 

Hwee Min – Although we do not talk much nowadays, whenever I have any problems in which I need help or advice on, you would never fail to put in effort to help me, by means of text, or verbally, which always give me an immediate relief, followed by inspiration with a boost of energy to help me complete the task at hand. It’s like you’re Panadol fast relief! Well, you never fail to give your personal opinion, and many side notations which are really things that I would have never thought of (eg. people’s feelings towards my actions etc.) had it not for consulting you.

 

Hao Wen – Although we do not really text much, when we get together, ideas would just float into our brains simultaneously. Awesome developed telepathy!! Many people who were touched by my “dairies” are all deeply indebted to you are you were the one who first shown me that trusting someone is really as simple as that, and through your empathetic replies, the relieved feeling of sharing the burden manifested in me. Hence made me more likely to trust in others too, impacting their lives. All credit goes to you! Not forgetting that no one else outside school knows about my school life better than you do!!

 

Tessa – A new face in 2011 that topped the charts of Joel Chan’s heart! Indeed, you’re an awesome friend. Besides the kicking, calling names, plucking the past and throwing it back at my face, the random messages, drawings of Finasaurs on my book, still the best part of you is going out with you! Well, you’re like, the joy-bringer to me, which no words could describe the honor in meeting you. All of these, expressed in that sweet little song dedicated to you (Hope you still have it)!!  Just remember that I’d always stand by you when you need me, as you had done for me!!

 

Agnes – Although it has really been a super-duper long time in which we last had a real conversation, I would always remember that time when I was down and depressed in which you helped me through. If it had not been for you, I don’t suppose that I would able to get through the whole thing so smoothly as I did with your assistance. All the things that I had shared with you, I would not have shared with anyone else so openly. Guess there’s something about you, in which I have found myself in; to pick up my broken pieces and move on with my life. I have taken a lot away from those impromptu comments and remarks that had even shocked yourself whenever I poured out to you. Thank you for everything, and I do hope we’d stay in touch for as long :)

 

Charlotte – Well, the other (rather not so) new face in 2011 which had brought joy into my life! Well, all I have to say is that, somehow, somewhere, something about you helped me discover myself, helping me read the fine lines between the fabric of humanity and my authenticity, when no one could. You set the targets for me, for I wanted to be like you; having the ability to manage so many different things, yet cope with studies etc. All those are already expressed in my first, ever, written hagiography about anyone EVER! You should be especially honored receiving it!!

 

Brandon – I do not know why, but your name just popped up in my mind out of a sudden as I was brainstorming of who to write about next. Well, do you remember the first formal address we had before making acquaintances? It was for that song thing. Ever since then, you have proven yourself to be one of few in which I can clearly see a very big heart, almost fully occupying your ribcage. From the littlest of things, like helping me to carry my books initiatively, (till now no one else had done so!) to the biggest, my impression on you is so great. I guess I had expressed that about you few posts ago. But until now, the greatest impact you have imprinted onto my life was that of the second night of the Sports Camp @ BBSS, whereby a ton-ning session till 4, became a religious sharing session. It was there and then did I saw a believer, a role model, one who sticks firmly to his belief, for you had not weighed the oppressions of this world. Though many would classify that as blind faith, as you may not have even seen a fraction of God’s glory or miracle in your life, but have so much trust in Him; I classify that as TRUE FAITH. For it is not faith if you’re using your eyes, but it is true the eyes of faith, that you see miracles one by one befalling upon you! I’m truly amazed!

 

Genevieve – Some awesome, hyperactive girl who –for all that I knew- has a smile on her face 24/7. Even without yourself noticing it, you light up my day when you pin-point the things about me that no one would ever care about. Like, who in the right mind would be silly enough to count and state the number of smiley face that I sent in the text, as though you are doing some survey? Well, you did!! Whatever it has been, be it plainly saying HI, or sending you long messages trying to inspire you, I have enjoyed them all. Thank you for being a great platform for me to express myself!

 

Jacelyn – Just great knowing you, a girl who surprisingly brings comfort through your presence! That’s why I just love walking with you. Be it going to school, or whatever. Without you, the 50 meters to school would make me a loner everyday. Do not see your significance in my life as just a small speck of dust, for you are one of the few people who can just paint a smile on my face by just glancing at you.

 

Janel – A really cool girl, with a weird attitude. Guess that is what I have tried to figure about you, and that’s perhaps what I like about you. The visitations to your class would not complete without stopping by your table, just fiddling with your things! A few seconds made to just drop by and see your smile, or get some damage inflicted on me is always welcoming, and guess my day would be widely perked with your appearance! :)

 

M&M – Funny how I thought that I should address you two together, after finding out what M&M actually meant to you (Max) XD. Well, it’s just the AWESOME guy, with the AWESOME girlfriend. You two have made a spark in my life, as both of you pretty much know how my heart operates. As simple as loaning a book from my “Supermarket”, made me feel wanted. Or just sending a text in the middle of the day relating to incidents happening in the day itself makes me feel like “Oh, I’m wanted” and that’s an irreplaceable feeling. Do last long, the highlight couple of 2011 to me!

 

T. – Well, that’s your nickname! Well, as I have mentioned to you before, the joy you bring to me during morning assemblies determines the mood of my day. Be it you ridiculing my thoughts, laughing at my plans for the day, or simply commenting at the shape of the clouds, never fail to give my day a fresh and marvelous start. Therefore, we can conclude, no T, no happy Joel in school-day mornings xD

 

Ryan – Forever the blur, kiasu, ever-so-funny uncle in which ALWAYS, turn my sleepiness into hyperactive-ness with the above “qualities” that you possess. Although it is so easy to make me laugh, I have to vote you #1 who constituted to the most of my laugher!

 

HYH – The sick retard in which often intoxicates my mind with weird and funny ideology and perception of things. Good luck in competing for #1 spot with Ryan!

 

The people in which I have listed above, are just a small percentage of people whom I’ll never forget, in which I’m deeply humbled in meeting. So do not be too disappointed if you do not see your name appearing up there. For you should know that you own a place in my heart, supposing I do have one too in yours! If not why would bother reading this, right? I really want to thank God for showing these people in my life. Indeed, God shows His love to us through the love of people around us. Hence, it would be unnecessary for me to say that my world revolves around the people who are close to me, and my mood would be affected drastically if one of my friends is unhappy, or anything of that sort. Just know that I’ll be there for anyone should there be any area in your life that requires my help, for I’d help you with the best of my abilities!

 

As you can see from above, from morning till night, every friend have a part to play in making my day an enjoyable one. So cheers to all of you out there, for a appeal to all of you to remain my awesome friends that you always are. Treasure me, as I would too do so in you, knowing that God has placed you in my life for a specific reason, and vice verse!

July32011

Hey guys! My church has an emerge weekend two weeks later, and they have a little contest titled “YourBestShot”, (http://www.facebook.com/home.php?sk=group_56312236600) to showcase any God-given talent that you have. For me, I recorded a 5 part video (Voice, Guitar x3 and Piano) and compiled all of them together. However i could only show piano part cuz idk how to put 5 frames altogether. Do create a YouTube account (if you dont have one) and help me like it, if you like it!! Thanks!! 

June302011

The Girl I Can’t Acquire (Song)

Hey people~! It has really been a very long time since I posted! Well, sorry about that, I’m very busy doing so many things, and I suppose the best I can share with you all in this short time I have now is a song. Well, this was inspired by some crazy idea I got when I caught a little EYE CANDYY (not telling who :)). Well, hope you enjoy the rhymes! I promise to share with you guys many things which I have thought about the whole of last month and all in a new post. WHEN I HAVE THE TIME!! Here it goes!

The eyes, that sparkle like the stars,

The lips, that whispered from afar.

The hair, that floats off with the wind;

I know it seems just like a dream.

_______________________________

The beau, captivates my heart,

Her smile, to my heart a dart.

The glimpse, forever in my mind;

I hope it won’t become a crime.

_______________________________

Every moment with her my heart sublimes,

Everything about her it seems so fine.

But she will never be mine.

Every time I steal a glance my eyes catch fire,

If you question my heart I’d be a liar.

That is the girl I can’t acquire.

________________________________

Well, it ain’t complete, but guess that all I could think of :) Till next time, bye!~

May162011

Finding Meaning in this World (Part 2)

Dear Readers,

My apologies! It has yet been a very long time since I’ve last updated my blog, I hope you forgive me! I’ve added a little page counter at the bottom of this page for fun the last time I had updated my blog, and to see the large figure there although I didn’t even update it makes me feel rather happy that you guys still look out for me on my blog! Thanks a lot for your views!

 

Many things have been urging me to write: myself (pending inspiration), my friends, the ‘complains’ of me not updating, as well as the compliments, like how my words are so addictive, and that people actually seek calamity in my blog. I’m deeply honored to be a part of you :) Honestly, I did not like writing at all before all these started. It’s hard to believe huh? But it’s true that through all the positive comments and stuffs made me fell in love with penning down my thoughts here!

 

It’s the end of my exams, and there are lots of exciting things to come, like a church camp that is coming soon! However there is one impending matter in my heart that seems to be sucking the life out of this excitement. It is the claim that 21st May 2011 is the Judgment Day, read more about it in http://www.familyradio.com/graphical/literature/proof/proof.html if you wanna. Well, the main thing is that it just takes too much of my mind to think of the possibilities. I suppose these would all be put to rest on 22nd May 2011 if that day comes.

 

Another thing that I want to share is a very nice and touching story that I came across in my Literature exam. It is a prose extract from ‘Campfire’, by Philip Jeyaretnam. Have a look:

           

            She breezed into my life at the canteen with one of those corny lines I had always been too shy to use. 

            ‘You’re the boy who stays in my block, aren’t you?’

            I was dazed from the start. At a distance she had seemed shy and demure but now she was brazenly chatting me up. My defence resolve was slowly pulled from me. I felt myself like a lettuce being unwrapped leaf by leaf until my heart lay cupped in her palms. 

            We started going out together, then going steady. As time went by the tacit understanding that we were something together blossomed into a dizzying consciousness of love. We began to punctuate our sentences with the words ‘I love you’. Sometimes I felt I was only play-acting, playing or maybe just observing a game of love. But more often than not I was swept away on I tide of excitement, swallowed up by waves of desire. The whole world had altered for me, altered by the fact that I was Lina’s and Lina was mine. You must know the feeling, of existing in an inviolable cocoon with your lover, occasionally looking out upon the world with scorn and contempt.

             There was something special about her. The feeling whenever I saw her from a distance, walking around in a crowd, looking for me. I always used to watch her for a while before I went up to greet her. Just to indulge my sense of possession. There amidst all that crowd was someone who loved me. And all her movements – the toss of her head as she turned to look in another direction, the peculiar spring in her walk – were familiar and dear to me.

             We went together for three and a half years. Ever since that moment in the canteen when she came up and said, ‘You’re the boy that stays in my block, aren’t you?’ But now it’s all gone. Two months ago she went to Malaysia, to Desaru, with her friends. I did not want her to go. I wanted her to be with me at the weekend. But u kept quiet – we never let jealousy or possessiveness destroy us. Why did I not speak up? Hold her and refuse to let her go?

             I just let her slip away. Away to a dark road in a tinpot car driven by some bastard friend of hers. Away to a timber lorry driven by another bastard in another direction. I could not even recognise the body when they brought it down. Her family did not bother with embalming. She went to the crematorium that day. And now I have nothing. Just memories that will slip from me as surely as she did.

           The tears were coursing down my cheeks though I was not sobbing. I sat huddled on the edge on my camp bed. I felt embarrassed silence grow up and enclose me. I expected nothing from my friends. I did not know why I had talked as fully as I had. But now I stood defenceless and alone I wanted to shout at them, break down their barriers; tell them all how fragile they were. That Cambridge boy, secure in his passion for knowledge as though that could save him. And the others – one with his half-Christian, half-Confucian morals, proud of her prudery and inhabitations, viewing with horror licence of old China or new West. And the last, happy as birds, never thinking just being, being nobody.

           I stood up, looking around at them with rage and hatred growing in my heart. But my fierce stabbing glances revealed only three young men helplessly asleep. They must have fallen asleep somewhere in the midst of my words. I felt cheated and empty, anger ebbing, rage receding. I sat down again, head in my hands. I was still sitting there marooned in my thoughts long after the fire had sputtered out.

                                                                                                                                   

Such a beautiful story! Anyway, did you remember that I questioned my confidant regarding this series ‘Finding Meaning to this World’? Well I just got her reply not long ago, and again set me wondering further. I do admit I agree to her claim that her answers are rather weird, but I interpreted lots more than just that. She is the example of the type of people who are simple minded and straight forward. The kind of people who live for a very simple cause – to love one another.

 

Now take in mind here that she is not a Christian like me, so her belief system is different from mine. But still she sees life as a place to impart love, care for one another, stand by one another in times of need, and that life now is a place for her to build up her moral values. Now here’s someone who is not told to love, but love on her own initiative. That is something I do respect about her. This tells me something about human nature that we are made to love one another. We are built upon love. We are built for love. This is what we are supposed to do.

 

I don’t know about you, but I’m starting to feel that life is more than what it appears to be. At first we glimpse life as a grey, hazy picture, something to live by the clock, but later do we realise the real importance of living each day to the best of our abilities. With something more to add on that, it is said that there would only be 5 more days for us to live. So what more should we live each day to the fullest?

 

I confided in my friends of my fear in the end of the world; judgment day, rapture, or doomsday. Whatever you perceive it to be. Many said I need not worry about all these, for I am ‘saved’ (in my believe) and that since this prediction is to judge if I do stick to my belief or not is nothing of my concern for I am sure to go up there. If you know what I mean. But what I fear about is not myself, honestly I fear for the people around me, that are not ‘saved’. I fear for my loved ones, I fear for my friends; what if this day is really coming and I may never see them again? What if my belief is true and the day come and I may never converse with these friends ever again? :(

 

To be continued… … 

April232011

Finding Meaning in this World (Part 1)

Dear Readers,

My apologies! I wasn’t able to post last Friday due to some prize presentation in school (AAC – Annual Awards’ Ceremony) where I was the parade emcee, pathetically reading off three pathetic lines to nobody. Well, at least I got to see and talk to some of BBSS’s ex-students, like my sister and her friends. Lately I have not been fulfilling the wants of a “nerd” as I was going round doing stuffs and playing. But I guess it’s all worth it; a break from all the nonsense that life throws at me :)

 

Well, but I guess I really have to go back to work very soon, it’s the exam period! I guess it’s the same for most of you too, so good luck to you all!! Well, there are so many things that I want to update you guys on, these two weeks have really been a fast moving, yet activity-packed week. I could hardly laze around, but ironically that was all I had been doing in my free time. Gotta STUDY!!!

 

I had stated confiding in someone new; the forth on my list. It’s a “she” again yeah. Well, this post “Finding Meaning in this World” is the main topic of my messages to her. Stay tuned to find out the things I’ve asked and the answers she gave. Well, you may ask me what’s the point of confiding in someone when I’m gonna make it public? Well… just say… I have my own reasons!

 

Before I start, I would like to share an experience that I went through, a new one; the answer of duty call. Well, I’m a person who likes to help others, many would not see this in me, but it’s a fact. I seldom hesitate whenever I’m given the chance to help or please someone. This is particularly dangerous especially when I’m emptying my pocket in the process; which happens most of the time. But this time I didn’t. I’m sharing with you of an experience which I’ve felt indifferent, something unexpected.

 

I have been pondering weather to keep the identity of this person confidential, but I guess I should. This friend sought my help in getting his girlfriend back, asking me to compose a song for him. So I borrowed I tune from one of my pre-composed songs and twitched the lyrics here and there, and ‘poof’, a new song was born. Well I’m very sure that it would bring forth great power, and that he would get the girl back, but unfortunately, it failed. Nevertheless, we went to have dinner, and that’s when the magic begun. No, we were not gay.

 

Well, he offered to get me a drink. The first thought that came into the mind was like, “how do I answer this question?” Honestly, not one has asked me this question before; that’s the reason why I didn’t know how to answer that. I politely declined, but soon after, he stood up and said that he was going to buy, asking me what do I want, so I told him. Throughout the whole dinner, we didn’t talk much, was pretty silent, rather weird, but we stayed on.

 

He thanked me for my help that day. After dinner, we took a bus to West Mall. Due to the bus being crowded by the peak hour, we were forced to stand. I was carrying books, my shoe bag, and my racquet as it was after my training. Upon seeing me swaying like some random palm tree by the beach, he offered to help me take my books. I was like, so touched. It was the first time someone offered to help me take my stuffs for me; my heart sank. Most of the time, I had to help people take their stuffs, or at times I would request my friends to help me take my stuffs for me for a while. I was really touched by his actions, realizing what a great person he was.

 

Then, after we parted, I thought the least I could do was to comfort him. So I used my signature multiple pages of sms spasm to comfort him; if I’m not wrong, it was a 28 page message. My record was 70++ lol!!!! He was grateful for it. This experience was indeed different from my other experiences that I tried to help someone. As this time, it’s a guy (!!) and he too help me in certain things, including understanding humanity

 

Another thing I would like to share is a of a great friend, who helped me emotionally. Lately, I have been weird, I mean, I had been going through a few emotional setbacks. I remembered failing certain subjects in the past (i.e. sec 1/2)  when I could laughed it off so easily like it was nothing. I guess it was because of my greater sensitivity towards academics that I started to feel emotional when I get lousy marks.

 

It was just some maths test that I failed, I got the marks before recess and I felt super bad, and I wrote a poem of it and sent it to 3 friends whom I trust. It was a poem that represented maths as a monster, which would always beat me up when I approach. Well, can’t show you’ll ‘cause I deleted it already! But the main thing was that I was just rather emotional.

 

So there I was, feeling emo in class, I listened to my iPod, waiting for the reply of the 3 friends, when one of my classmates same me and asked me was I alright. So I send her the poem, and went for Chinese class. She is from higher Chinese class, so she stayed in our class, and the rest would have to go downstairs. Upon return to class, I found a little post-it on my table, and thank God for post-its. On the paper, it wrote something like:

 

“I am not exactly the “right” person to give you encouragements since my maths results are just as pathetic. But I know that you will win that monster one day and get your *drawing of a flag* (guessing that it symbolizes victory). Sometimes though. Why not you look at the *drawing of a monster* in other ways, and make it your friend? This is what I am trying to do too and hopefully one day my maths will improve too. *a drawing of a cute cartoon man patting a “furry monster” as though it was its pet*”

 

What a great post-it indeed! Well, actually there was a side note that it was some ugly drawing, requesting me to throw it away after reading. But I disobeyed. It was simply too sweet to be thrown (!) and which part of it was ugly??? After reading it, I smiled as I kept staring at the picture, thinking to myself, is this possible? The way I smiled was as though I received some love text message from my girlfriend whereby my mom would go “why are you smiling like that? 笑到这样甜Who sent you that?”. Well I do appreciate these little efforts to perk me up. Like how I used to say, it doesn’t take the whole world to please me. Just a little gesture as such could make my day.

 

WOW what a long introduction! I wonder if my intended content would be at least the same length as the intro! Anyway! Lately, as mentioned earlier, I have been confiding in someone new. I composed a long string of questions asking her about this topic “Finding Meaning in this World”. I have been watching a few end-of-world/alien-invasion movies lately. These futuristic movies as well as movies depiction some important historical incidents/warfare/moments caused my mind to drift into a vast infinity of questions. As that happens, my fingers tries its best to type some questions the thoughts pertained.

 

She was like… whutt..? haha! But she promised to answer those questions after our exams. Guess I have to wait until then for her answers. The reason why I didn’t confide in any of my previous 3 confidants was because they were all Christians. Like me, and I know what their answers would be. The same answer that I would give if they asked me the same questions. I wanted to seek an opinion from a non-Christian, of their perspective of life. I was really desperate for answers, so much so that I was in fear, to a very large extend.

 

I questioned the meaning of life, I questioned the reason of life, I question what she thinks of it. Indeed flaws are what make up humanity, but when you ascend to heaven, all is perfect; no sins (according to my belief) and you’ll be praising God. But what would it be? A flawless place; what would become of humanity when it is flawless?

 

I question if we are pets of a greater, more dominant species unseen to us. I questioned if we are part of a network of organizations, moving around so insignificantly, perhaps like delocalized electrons. So weird huh? I questioned how it would feel when you have not been created. I questioned what would one feel like being dead. I questioned if we would be floating around in this universe so pointlessly, like some retarded wondering ghost you see on a kid’s channel.

 

The fact that you are not able to turn back the clock and go back into your mother’s womb to feel how it is like not being created, or wake up the dead and ask them how it is like being dead, just makes it frustrating; a dead end. The only way to get the answer is by death itself, and by asking your creator when you meet Him.

 

I questioned the cycle of life, when at the end of it, you realise that you are like a dog chasing after your own tail, or like some hamster running pointless on that wheel. I questioned the point of building your knowledge when they would be fed to the soil five-foot under. I questioned the learning outcomes of this big life-long lesson called “life”, and the application of it in afterlife. Like how we are told of the learning outcomes when learning a certain topic, and its application in life, why are we not told of about this lesson?

 

I feel like I’m living in a portal, like how I confided in her, saying life is like a transit, whereby our destination is uncertain, and so was our prior departing location. Well, there’s more more more of it, but I guess I should stop now. I had started my research, thanking God for the creation of internet! I went through Wikipedia and looked up the origins of certain culture and belief systems, including mine. I plan to look up on the geographical, and scientific explanations, as well as myths as to the creation of this world. Guess you’ll have to wait for my conclusion. Or you could answer to some of my questions for me!! Till then, I guess it’s my turn to say,

 

To be continued… …

 

HAHA!! :)

April82011

Disabled

Hello guys! It’s a Friday, and tomorrow is a Saturday; the start of an awesome weekend! How was your week? Mine was great, and I did quite a lot of productive things, and I feel that this week was well spent. Thank God that I am not chained down by my homework this weekend, with the exception of the killer-Physics-homework which always arrives and disrupts our peace! Haha! Well, I do hope that you all would have an enjoyable and wonderful weekend to come! Hmmm, I still do not have a fresh new topic to expand on, so do feel free to text me any topics that you think I would be interested in writing of. Anything, just text me!

 

Well, today’s a short one! Well, “Disabled” is one topic which I have thought about ever since last Sunday, but I did not have the chance to pen it down until now. Well, at least I hope I do remember most of the things that I want to share with you guys. Let me tell you what happened last Sunday!

 

Last Sunday, I participated in a communal-based event called “I Am ___”. It is an event whereby you are split into groups of nine, and go around to the malls along Orchard Road to perform different tasks. Three of us were blind, mute, and deaf respectively. There are 5 malls and 3 activities in each mall, and after each mall, we would rotate roles.

 

Initially, I thought that the tasks would be very easy and we would be able to finish them very quickly, however, I was wrong. The “disabilities” that we had made the tasks so difficult. At many times, I really felt like cheating, and just to remove the disability that I have, and complete the task that we have.

 

Overall, I felt that the role of a blind in the game was the most difficult one, in fact, I really disliked it. I really couldn’t see anything at all, and I didn’t want to cheat, and it was really a very difficult time to get over. I felt fearful, I felt insecure, I did not know where to go, in what direction, when am I going up an escalator or down a flight of stairs; how many steps there are.

 

I felt the constant fear of colliding against an oncoming pedestrian, as I really could not see, and whenever I trip over something, my heart would too skip a beat, and I would blame the person who was leading me. Being blind was really a challenge, especially for one of the task in a certain mall, whereby I, as a blind person was supposed to tie five SUPER fine strings together, according to a colour combination pattern. I really could not put them together, as I was really very very fine and I could hardly feel it at all!

 

I remember how some people would stare at us with a snobbish look as we walk in and out, up and down malls, performing the various tasks assigned to us. I felt very bad; you know the kind of feeling like you know that someone’s irritated at you when you want to do something about it but you can’t help it? Well, that is how the people with disabilities feel, and that is the kind of look that they will get, being looked down upon, ignored, teased, being told off.

 

The outcomes, motives, and learning points of this event was very clear to me; to raise awareness for the people who are physically impaired, and for us to sympathize with them. But I did not ever think that it would impact me in such a great deal - by doing all the activities, building teamwork and finishing tasks. But the thing that I took home which still stays in my heart till now is the way people look upon the physically impaired.

 

We could very much represent the disabled, going through life, doing daily routine tasks, such as requesting a change of denomination of money. However, that was another simple, yet when disabled, difficult task that I was faced with. Being blind, I had to be led by people to exchange denominations of money. I was really destroyed inside, disappointed by the fact that I was turned down by at least 20 people who either ignored me, or quickly avoided.

 

I spent a really long time to change 2 $10 notes to some smaller denominations: 2 of $5 notes, $2 notes, $1 coins, and 50cent coins. An able person could do it in less than half a minute to do it. But it took us more than five minutes, for the dumb and deaf to lead the blind around to request for the change. We’ve wasted lots of time going round and round looking for people, and God knows how the passer-bys look at me, since I was blind. It was really an eye opening event that I took part in.

 

After the whole event, I was talking to people about how they feel about the event, and while I was talking, two realizations sunk into my heart. Firstly, this is how a physically impaired person would feel like, and that is the negative response that one would get by the people around you who do not understand the plight that you are in. secondly, it is that we should not take for granted our perfectly fit bodies, abilities and talent. I’m glad to know that firstly, I now understand the plight disabled people face, and not see them as a nuisance like how some passer bys saw us as, and secondly, that by not taking for granted all that we’re blessed with, we would not waste the potential that we have, to overcome anything in the distant future, and what you can achieve by building the potential that you have now.

 

So let’s not take for granted this pair of eyes that we have, that we may see all things ahead, behind, and around us. Let’s not take for granted this couple of ears that could hear the love that people would speak, the sound of breaking water, wind rushing through the leaves of the trees. Let’s not take for granted the mouth and tongue that we’re blessed with, and that we are able to impart love, and speak love with it. Let’s not take for granted the abilities that we’re blessed with, the talents that we possess, and let’s live out our potential that is within us, and do not take for granted anything that we have. Sympathize.

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